Megh (guitargirlie621) wrote, @ 2006-02-02 02:07:00

Current mood:	tired
Current music:	Falling Out - Relient K

I'm Falling Out Of Control And You Just Can't Stop Me Now
I've decided...no more drinking. For a long time at least. Thank God I'm pledging, so I'm forced into sobriety for the next 3 weeks. I just keep hearing too many forgotten pieces of this weekend and yeah...no more for me. I'm done.

So tonight started awesome for me. Ness and I both got our formal bids from Tri Sig. I was sooo excited, you have no idea! I love those girls so much and I'm so excited to start pledging on Friday!!

But after that, everything has been shitty. I still haven't even started my critique paper. I just have no motivation to do anything right now. Then I was talking with someone online and a combination of mixed signals, high hopes, and then reality completely changed my mood. Whatever...I give up. Then, just because I love to torture myself, I read someone's blog and it made me feel like the most insignificant person ever. I mean, I have no reason to expect anything, it's just...I dunno...it made me feel worthless.

God, why am I so lame?

So yeah, I'm not very fond of myself at the moment, or even other people for that matter. Ugh I hate this...

oh meghan.. anniestarryeyes 2006-02-02 09:13 (link)

meghan my love keep your head high life sometimes seems hopeless from being so upset in our own faults our own pathetic mistakes but it does not make you who you are the beauty within you is what makes you you because you are uniquely beautiful and thats how God views you you are wonderfully made and you are still in the making so look forward to what God is going to do with your life because He is not finished with you yet i love you meghan =) (Reply to this) (Thread)

	(Anonymous) 2006-02-02 20:33 (link)
	Keep your chin up, kid. Things always work out in the end, and know there are alot of people out there praying for you. Im here if you need a friend, I hope you can feel better about yourself. You are amazing. (Reply to this) (Thread)