em (grayeyes) wrote, @ 2005-11-27 04:09:00

Current mood:	thoughtful
Current music:	ani difranco : loom

I wrote an entry once about my perfect life. It involved a tiny, private wedding, a fast paced career with a high heel requirement, a country house and a pair of short, rowdy spider-man fanatics. It's a pretty idea. I still really love the entry and, honestly, if that ended up being my life I probably wouldn't cry about it. Too much.

It is not, however, how I'd like things to turn out.

At this point, my perfect life consists of an apartment with a big kitchen and a dishwasher. Someone I can love and trust and talk to, who laughs a lot and is going to respect my ferocious, frustrating, stubborn, independence. A job that stresses me out but makes me feel really good at the end of the day; a job that lets me wear jeans and flip flops every day if I want to, that doesn't care if my hair is bright red, that I have my nose pierced, that someday I may not be a size nothing. I want cats, just the two. Maybe a dog. No kids.

Some things haven't changed. I still want a tiny, casual wedding, and to live in a big city and I'd definitely take a mountain retreat and more than 12 minutes of real conversation a day with the man I love. I'd still like to make pancakes.

I just want walks in the park, a little flower pot garden, mounds of snow in the winter, and a reliable coffee maker. I want to do yoga and cook really good food; learn to make bread and a few choice Indian dishes. I want to get back to writing and maybe paint. I want an apartment that smells nice and doesn't have bugs and has enough room for me to have an office. I want whole days without a schedule and I want hugs on demand.

I think that's manageable.

	largemarj 2005-11-27 10:54 (link)
	I enjoyed this entry. I hope you get what you want. :) ~marj (Reply to this) (Thread)

	grayeyes 2005-11-27 19:43 (link)
	me too :P glad to see comments from you, lady (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	runawayemotions 2005-11-27 12:19 (link)
	Every girl's fantasy is to have the perfect life that they dream about. I hope that you get your fantasy life, because everyone deserves that chance. P.S. You have a beautiful writing style, it's incredibly vivid...I wish I could do that. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	grayeyes 2005-11-27 19:46 (link)
	oh thanks. :) I just write what I see in my brain. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	runawayemotions 2005-11-29 19:27 (link)
	Oh and I had to write a poem about love/desire for my poetry class, so I sort of went with this idea - just inserting my own dreamed up future...with a specific husband in mind...=P Hope you don't mind...=) Thanks for the inspiration. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: grayeyes 2005-11-29 20:52 (link)
	did it work? :) post the poem! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

penseur 2005-11-29 10:35 (link)

I agree with the two people who commented before me: you've got a vivid, beautiful writing style. (Hm. Bizzare. When I just wrote "beautiful", I stared at it for a good minute and thought, "Fuck. That looks like it's spelled wrong." Oh well. If I stare at the word "cat" long enough, I can convince myself I've spelled that wrong, too.) The thing about how you envision the "perfect life" is that it changes as you get older. I went from wanting a big wedding to a small wedding to just eloping...if I ever found the right person to settle down with. Hm. That's the thing about life, though, isn't it? Things change. (Reply to this) (Thread)