Oh Lauren, J.K. pretty much used me. I went to his mom's with him and our friend Danny.. And the whole time we were laying on the floor, he was trying to get into my pants. I kept telling him no, and I'm not ready.. But he didn't listen. Finally I told him that I wasn't putting up with it, and had Danny take me home. Then the next night we hung out, he did it AGAIN.. Only he didn't try as much. So, last night before I went to bed.. I wrote him a strongly worded letter telling him we needed to break it off, because I wasn't going to get used again.. Like how Jay used me. It also said that I would keep talking to him.. And we could continue to be friends.. But I didn't think a relationship would work.... God, I am useless.. I will never find anyone. I feel so used. Maybe because I am.. I am just this girl that all the guys use. I hate me..
