truth (girlwithagun) wrote, @ 2003-07-26 19:33:00

Current mood:

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rainbows and happiness
there is a rainbow over my house... big huge and perfect.... I saw it as we were driving back with a load from the other house... kharma got her birth certificate... rhia can go to school... and somehow I'm not stressing about work... I have that feeling today that everything will be alright... and there's a rainbow to prove it.

I don't remember ever being a god girl... when I was a little mormon girl... I always saw heavenly mother when I prayed... and the goddess has been the most amazing force in my life to date... but lately... I feel this amazing love for the sun... this warmth and masculine energy. I've reconciled with my mental state enough to connect to a male deity... and some days it's the most amazing feeling in the worl... I want to sit and cry and bask in the sun... all of happiness. I hear Loreena McKennitt... those words of her send chills up my spine... our lord, our god... it's a strange happy feeling to love a male deity again.

	violetenigma 2003-07-26 22:44 (link)
	I still cant find a male god. its not any fear of men or anything either. I cant find one that I connect with. Any suggestions or thoughts to help? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	(Anonymous) 2003-07-27 00:59 (link)
	The postoffice clerk is a mail god... does that count? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: girlwithagun 2003-07-27 18:52 (link)
	booo.... *laughs* that's cute. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: girlwithagun 2003-07-27 18:40 (link)

no clue... ime years to find a father god... and even now it's still difficult. I know he's my god beyond all else... my "dad" in the whole scheme... but it's still hard some days. the sun energy could be attributed to him... but right now it's much easier to connect with this faceless sun god. some days it feels very much like Apollo. my advice? don't worry about it. it will come with time. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	girlwithagun 2003-07-27 18:54 (link)
	edit*** ime: it took me (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	soulblueprint 2003-07-27 13:50 (link)
	how strange... austin & i saw a rainbow too.. (Reply to this) (Thread)