truth (girlwithagun) wrote, @ 2003-07-23 22:23:00

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I want to lock myself in your eyes... hide away in a smaller world... where I'm not chiding myself for dazing away in freezing rooms... trying to forget how unhappy I am... how miserable I've been... how awake I feel. I've got to remind myself of something... forget myself of others. I wish I could be like you... and hide for a day for the world was safe... keep my silence to myself... and not force me out of this shell. I wish I could cry until the walls broke... I wish I could lose it all in peace. I wish I could let go and stop holding it all together.

soulblueprint 2003-07-24 14:35 (link)

...the scary truth of the matter is... i wish i could keep it all together... my freedom in being able to break and have someone there to take care of me is an embarrassment... it is a certain dependence that i wish i could liberate myself from.. it tells me that i canno't survive by myself - own my own - that i have to have other people.. that i am a child.. that i will never be grown enough or strong enough.. i want what you have & you want what i have .. but i find this much to often in everyone else on the planet.. celebrate your strengths & weaknesses.. for we are in a human shell.. we just have to keep breathing.. -i love you- (Reply to this) (Thread)