[Drada] (ginger_blood) wrote, @ 2003-10-16 17:15:00

Current mood:	depressed
Current music:	"Numb" Linkin Park

Today, my crush was chewing this big piece of gum, and he went over to the trash can and spit it out, and i felt my heart drop.
I dont know why.
I just wanted to be like "WAIT!! Ill chew it!"
I know its sick, but... its just... wierd. Ive become really obsessive.
I just felt... depressed when he spit out his gum... i know it may seem dumb to you, but its just.... hard to explain it to you. And... alot of my friends found out today, that i have tried to kill myself 3 times and they were all like "NOO!! Dont, you cant! I love you too much!"
But... i didnt believe it... But if James(the guy i like) said that, i would never die...
I do everything for him.
Breathing
Living
Thinking
...everything...

I need a new screen name. Something that has a 2 digit # in it, and that has something dark to it. Like the word, injected, or numb... or something. So, lemme know if you have any suggestions....

	pinky007 2003-10-16 19:15 (link)
	dont ever kill yourself and dont cut yourself either please i wouldnt want you to do that. Im not sure about a screen name hmm maybe a depressing song you like... (Reply to this) (Thread)

	ginger_blood 2003-10-17 10:06 (link)
	Well, sometimes the stress is just to much to handle... kinda of like you feel. Except i feel that way for a LONG time.. And i tried all the song names, but their all taken. :-/ so i have a new one. Its in my info (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)