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| Current music: | "I Promise" Stacie Orrico |
Tom Felton... hes been on my mind all day, again.
I think im starting to get obsessed with Orlando Bloom again too.... But i dont think i will... at least i hope not.
Geez. I'm lame. Why do you guys even read this. Im such a dork.
All i talk about is obsession, and stupid shit... So i guess ill tell you my story.
When i was 6 i was almost raped. I was walking home from my friends apartment, and i noticed this drunk guy sitting on the steps. So i walked up like usual ( i lived in an apartment, on the 3rd floor-the very top) and as i walked up, he said "Hi." So i said "Hi" and continued walking. Then he turns around and looks at me, and says
"Come with me."
"No i really have to get home."
"I'll take you home later."
So he began walking down the steps to the bottom floor, and i followed because i didnt want him to beat me or something. So then he says
"Pull your pants down!"
"NO!"
Then he started lifting up my shirt, and i pushed him back against the door to the first floor, and i ran all the way to my house. I went in the house, and slammed the door shut and i stood with my back pressed against it panting. My moms boyfriend at the time (whos my sisters dad) and his brother were sitting on the couch playing play station. They both looked at me, and were like
"Are you okay?"
And i said
"Yes i'm fine!"
Then i ran to my room, locked the door, and started crying....
I didnt tell my mom until i was 10, and she obviously didnt care because i told her, ad she forgot. Then i kept telling her throught the years, and she never cared.... So thats also a reason why i dont live with my mom. She doesnt care. And a reason why i say i dont really have a family is because they didnt start "loving" me (thats the word that best describes it) until i started saying i was gonna kill myself. But, my friends did. So thats why i say
"My friends are my family. My other "family" is just... there."
So, now ya know.
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