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[Drada] (ginger_blood) wrote,
@ 2003-09-28 11:07:00
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    Current mood:numb
    Current music:"I Promise" Stacie Orrico

    Tom Felton... hes been on my mind all day, again.
    I think im starting to get obsessed with Orlando Bloom again too.... But i dont think i will... at least i hope not.
    Geez. I'm lame. Why do you guys even read this. Im such a dork.
    All i talk about is obsession, and stupid shit... So i guess ill tell you my story.

    When i was 6 i was almost raped. I was walking home from my friends apartment, and i noticed this drunk guy sitting on the steps. So i walked up like usual ( i lived in an apartment, on the 3rd floor-the very top) and as i walked up, he said "Hi." So i said "Hi" and continued walking. Then he turns around and looks at me, and says
    "Come with me."
    "No i really have to get home."
    "I'll take you home later."
    So he began walking down the steps to the bottom floor, and i followed because i didnt want him to beat me or something. So then he says
    "Pull your pants down!"
    "NO!"
    Then he started lifting up my shirt, and i pushed him back against the door to the first floor, and i ran all the way to my house. I went in the house, and slammed the door shut and i stood with my back pressed against it panting. My moms boyfriend at the time (whos my sisters dad) and his brother were sitting on the couch playing play station. They both looked at me, and were like
    "Are you okay?"
    And i said
    "Yes i'm fine!"
    Then i ran to my room, locked the door, and started crying....

    I didnt tell my mom until i was 10, and she obviously didnt care because i told her, ad she forgot. Then i kept telling her throught the years, and she never cared.... So thats also a reason why i dont live with my mom. She doesnt care. And a reason why i say i dont really have a family is because they didnt start "loving" me (thats the word that best describes it) until i started saying i was gonna kill myself. But, my friends did. So thats why i say
    "My friends are my family. My other "family" is just... there."

    So, now ya know.



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pinky007
2003-09-28 12:08 (link)
aww im sorry thats sad. im sure they love you maybe they just have a hard time expressing it.

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ginger_blood
2003-09-28 14:46 (link)
Nope, doubt it. Hey, how can i change the font in my blurty? I want my font like yours

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ginger_blood
2003-09-28 15:24 (link)
Hey, could u make me an icon?

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xoskippyxo
2003-09-28 15:48 (link)
Here this is for you






1,000 tears I’ve cried for you
But you never seamed to care
500 times I’ve cut my self and told you
You only pretend to care
100 times I’ve wanted to die because of you
You never even knew
50 times I’ve thought to ask my self why
You never even cared
And you never will










as far as i'm conserened that is your poem
I love u rain. Don't forget that ever.

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ginger_blood
2003-09-28 16:39 (link)
Thanks. Thats a really good poem. And its all true... all tooo true.
Thanks. I love you more than i can ever say. And even though we dont get the chance to talk that much n e more, i definately think of you sometime in the day. And, no matter what happens, you will always be my # 1 gurl! I love you soooo much. And u ARE comming to the grammies with me whether you like it or not. And if i win an award, you ARE coming up with me when i give my acceptance speech, because without you by my side, i wouldnt be up there, in front of those people. So, i thank you soo much gurlie. I LOVE YOU!! And join my community. http://www.blurty.com/community/my_babyz_daddy
Its where you claim your babys dad, and you can claim anyone thats not already claimed. And u can tell us the name of your kid too. LOL. I love you bebe<333 EMAIL ME! Qutpi69@yahoo.com

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xoskippyxo
2003-09-28 17:08 (link)
yeah but then I will have to find some1 I hate chooseing LOL

(that is your poem.It is for you. U can keep it for ever and ever and ever and ever and ever oh yeah and ever) lover you

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ginger_blood
2003-09-28 17:10 (link)
<33 I lover you too baby

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ginger_blood
2003-09-28 18:56 (link)
I lover you too bebe<33 SOOO SOOO FRIKIN MUSH!

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haha
xoskippyxo
2003-09-28 19:03 (link)
I kno b.c i am like WABAM I'm cool lol. THen u are like woo u are aswome I love u. *falls down stairs*

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livinmydream
2003-09-28 17:47 (link)
hi i'm sorry for bothering you but what type of code i it 2 make the bow were the journal is smaller.. please e-mail me at blueberryblist5@yahoo.com

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ginger_blood
2003-09-28 19:13 (link)
HEY! Wutzup!?
Your not bothering me at all. LOL
Actually, my friend did my layout for me, so you would have to ask her. her blurty is all_starme
Hey, i know this is sooo off topic, but can you join my community? its http://www.blurty.com/community/my_babyz_daddy
well, read the rules n youll know whut its about. You dont have to join, just check it out Thnx

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