Gish (giish) wrote, @ 2012-07-23 18:12:00

Current mood:	calm
Current music:	Drive all night - Bruce Springsteen

I think they are just going to have to deal.
I spill my beans everywhere. Here, or on Facebook, although I'm definitely more selective about Facebook. I still feel somewhat anonymous here so it feels like I can rock out like crazy here. but then I contradict myself. Usually a few times per day. but still feels good here, at the Blurty. Beansie, in his awesome laziness. I have the laziest cat and the most slothful dog. It works perfectly with my lifestyle. Dookie lays around until I start moving, then he only wants to visit the outdoors for a few minutes. Beans, well, I hardly see him unless we happen to meet over his food dish where he considers me at my most efficient. Buckley is the only one who has stayed true to his form, in being the most spastic dog I have ever known. Although I do enjoy things happening in my life, what is up with the men from my past calling and asking if I'd been hurt by them? Did they suddenly watch High Fidelity and feel chagrined about anything we shared? It must be a global blip in men's consciousness where they feel the need to check on how 'poor little Gish' is doing. I mean, really. The only thing that upsets me to the smallest degree is the fact they may still think of me that way. I know, I know. We as adults are not supposed to 'care' what others think. And usually that's true, although in this case, why can't they just forget? Maybe they are in 12 Step Programs and feel the need to clear the air. You know, the step where you make an inventory or something like that, of all the people you hurt in your lifetime. And if half these guys actually sat down and thought about it, they'd realise they'd be faced with a *looong* list of some unhappy women. Women in general like to pretend we are gracious and will take it on the chin, in an 'aaw sucks' kind of way when faced with this sort of personal inventory. But I refuse to. Why the hell should I let someone off for treating me terribly when I was 15, 19, 23, 26, 30, 32, 35, etc, etc? I think they are just going to have to deal.

	(Anonymous) 2012-08-04 23:58 (link)
	Aww, those ex boyfriends are probably just horny and wanting to get back into your tender musky and hot embrace!,beware...... (Reply to this) (Thread)