Joel Madden (gc_sickboy) wrote, @ 2003-03-23 19:03:00

Current mood:	drained
Current music:	Whats the Dillio- Mest

my life is fucked up.
Everything in my life is fucked up, My friends, certain family members, and I can't deal with it anymore. I'm going to keep to myself from now on, not fucking bothering people when they are happy, and sticking to my own life instead of theirs.

I thought this would be easy, but its not. I just want everyone to leave me alone for a couple of days, only certain people can talk to me, and I think they know who they are. My band mates, sister and mom. Those are the only people who can talk to me right now.

The one guy that I thought I could totally thought I could be with, because SOME person told me they liked me, was a lie. Everything I believe now has become a lie, I thought it would be cool if Benji and I dated a Lovato, Benj already is, but I've liked Matt for a long time, and I thought It was the truth, but then I find out him kissing Jeremiah, and its totally over. My liking for him, believing things and fucking everything

So Do me a favor, leave me ALONE!

	fuct_up_matt 2003-03-23 22:33 (link)
	I'm sorry. And I myself liked you too.. I just wish all this happened sooner and I didn't go on and kiss him. *sighs* I don't know. I'm just truly sorry. (Reply to this) (Thread)

ryan_escolopio 2003-03-24 00:11 (link)

only certain people can talk to me, and I think they know who they are. My band mates, sister and mom. I know I dont fit into that anywhere but I just wanted to say I know how it feels. What your going through I mean. I've been there. It hurts like hell. Wanting someone and then finding out they might actually might want you in return..but then you find out it was all a joke..or all a mistake. It hurts like hell that type of thing. But hey you gotta get over it. Dont let it bring you down or get you that upset. Just think of other things..focus on things that make you feel good. Or people that make you feel good. And whatever you do..dont distance yourself from your brother. He loves you and he does care. Ok so he spends time with his boyfriend but I'm sure if you asked him he'd be there for you in a heartbeat. So just think about it before you do that to him. Hes your twin..he understands you more than you probably understand yourself. So just yea..give him a chance. Talk to him and stuff. And I know we arent the best of friends..hell you guys probably hate me for having Aaron leave the band and come join Wakefield. But I'm here to talk too. I'm a good listener and I give good advise..or at least thats what Aaron tells me. But yea..you can always come to me. I'll be here. Sorry if I filled up your comments thingy..I just wanted to say what I wanted to say (Reply to this) (Thread)

	bertdaddy 2003-03-24 03:59 (link)
	My life is fucked up too. We should start a club. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	sarahxxmadden 2003-03-25 09:35 (link)
	bro you know if you need someone to talk to i am here for you..Just call home alright i love you Joel (Reply to this) (Thread)

	amylikewhoa 2003-03-25 22:09 (link)
	*huggies* (Reply to this) (Thread)

	??? (Anonymous) 2004-11-19 19:38 (link)
	is this dude gay or what and i seriously dont think this is joel (Reply to this) (Thread)

	ew (Anonymous) 2004-12-27 08:16 (link)
	BENJI IS GAY! i dont get it u were dating a guy what ew (Reply to this) (Thread)

(Anonymous) 2005-04-13 21:05 (link)

your life's fuced up both my so called parent's left me and my tow sister's i was 10 so i went tolive with my ant in ti'll i was 16 i'v ben working 3 job's + rising my tow sister's i'm 17 i had to drop out of scool and befor my so called parent's left thay both were useing the money for food for drug's and do you know how hard it is to tell to little girl's why thay dont have a father and mother and where thay went and why thay left them and your life's fucke up lol well good luck becouse you'll need it wont you (Reply to this) (Thread)