JC "Kitten" Chasez (freakme_josh) wrote, @ 2003-04-08 03:33:00

Current mood:

discontent

I think I've become an insomniac.

I just...have no desire to sleep half the time. Which is the oddest fucking thing considering I'm known for always wanting to sleep.

But maybe it's a good thing. If I don't sleep I can't be haunted by my dreams. However, if I'm awake my thoughts wander and I'm tormented by the what-ifs. It's a lose-lose situation. *pauses* What the hell am I talking about? I've already lost. Mulitple times, actually.




It'd be so much easier to move on if I didn't still care.

_kellbelle_ 2003-04-08 18:00 (link)

Well I can't say that I know what is going on. Or that I've talked to you in person, and I can't begin to relate to the pain you seem to be in but....I'm gonna try to be a little bit of help. I'm a firm believer in everything happens for a reason, and at times it feels like the world is falling apart around you. While you can't hide from memories, and you can't escape from pain you can learn to enjoy what good memories you have. If things were meant to be they will work out and though that is hard to believe (and even harder to accept) it is true.....Hopefully that outcome will be a quick one for you. Like I said, I can't really relate to you but I can try to listen and give advice. So if you ever need it, or just want someone to hang out with you I'll gladly accept the job. -Kelly (Reply to this) (Thread)