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25 rungs up
So I'm in one of those moods again where I have so many things going on in my head.
Can you handle the randomness? Don't worry, it's not written poem style...but it'll prolly sound like it (it always does!)
I love being a people person, but I hate confrontation. And in fact, I love arguing. It's just that when I hear myself speak in opposition to something I'm afraid it doesn't sound smart enough to win. I'm somewhat of a self-depricator...you could say. But you know what I do like? I do like that I can count my enemies on one hand. That comforts me. There could be more...but they haven't made themselves known. To me an enemy is a person who at LEAST has the balls to prove it. Are there any good quotes that support that? Oooo...Ima check........
I only found one that I liked...but it doesn't support me. Check it...
"O wise man, wash your hands of that friend who associates with your enemies". A Persian poet from the 1200's said that. Isn't that fantastic. I love it. It feels like a song when I read it.
I always strive to be smarter. Which could be the point of life, but still. I always strive. I always reach up. I'm always happy but I'm never satisfied. I feel when you are satisfied you stop working. You'll never know if there is more. When my fingernails scratch the very tip top, then I'll grab a pick and see whats past it. It will never end with me. I claim I love spontaneity, but the usual feeling of success makes me smile. I want to win at everything. I want to be the best. And sometimes I am, and it makes faliure that much harder. Just gotta keep moving on.
I'm graduating High School soon. My feelings about that are constantly changing. I go from feeling so completely afraid and depressed about it to jumping up and down, waiting for it to get here. As of this moment, all I want to do is graduate. I just wanna get it. Do it. Finish it. You know? Excessive Absences, failing grades...hooooooly crap. I just want it all to not matter. I WANT THAT GODDAMN DIPLOMA ON THE 28th OF MAY, THE YEAR OF OUR LORD TWO THOUSAND AND FIVE!
My life ladder is longer then I thought. Coming close to graduation will teach you that. You feel like you're 25 rungs up and your ladder, and then you realize that you are on a ladder that has at LEAST infinity rungs.
(why have I said "at LEAST" more then once?......why did I notice that?...why am I listening to Maroon 5? lol)
I have an X-Box at my house. It's not mine though. Joey let me borrow it for my HALO 2 training. I don't play it. It's kind of funny though, cuz I invite Jon over...but Jerry might as well have done it since they play HALO the whole time. Funny now...not that funny when I'm sitting on the couch staring. LOL. In fact, as I type this, they are behind me playing HALO. Ooooooh boy.
I am so bored. That's why I'm writing a lot of crap. Got nothing better to do. Does anybody else think I need more drive? Maybe in this case. Either more drive...or a car to do it in. *ba dum pshhhhhh*
I actually like Los Lonely Boys. Weird. Crazy Dream is a good song.
I keep seeing Monica everywhere. At least I think I do. It's like that stupid weed commercial where the chick hits the old man with her car, and sees him everwhere....only...I don't smoke...and Monica isn't an old man. I do, however, have a car, and a slightly good reason to run her over. JUUUST KIDDING. I don't hate her THAT THAT THAT much, and I can't afford to go to jail now...it might effect my scholarships.
I'm craving Kit Kats like a BITCH. It's my favorite candy you know. Nerds are a close second. Weird thing about Nerds is I HATE eating them. They make me squint. I hate sour. But I do like putting a whole bunch of them in my mouth, sucking off the coating and suffering the few moments of sour, only to get a half pound of sugar crystals tucked away in my mouth. Mmmmm.
Am I done talking. It's either this or sitting on the couch and watching HALO. *sigh*
Decisions decisions. Maybe they'll wonder where I am and come find me....
ha...
nope.
LMAO.
I'm bored. I guess I'll go. They threw something at my neck, but I didn't move so they don't think I felt it. Dumbasses.
NO SEX TILL GRADUATION! I promised God, and that is one dude you do NOT want to lie to.
I actually like Prince. Weird. When Doves Cry is a good song.
Kay bye.
~Chris~
Emily Dickinson wrote this, and it is exactly how I feel about Jon.
If you were coming in the fall,
I'd brush the summer by
With half a smile and half a spurn,
As housewives do a fly.
If I could see you in a year,
I'd wind the months in balls,
And put them each in separate drawers,
Until their time befalls.
If only centuries delayed,
I'd count them on my hand,
Subtracting till my fingers dropped
Into Van Diemen's land.
If certain, when this life was out,
That yours and mine should be,
I'd toss it yonder like a rind,
and taste eternity.
But now, all ignorant of the length
Of time's uncertain wing,
It goads me, like the goblin bee,
That will not state its sting.
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 | awesome poem
 malucaginga1718
2005-04-30 20:48
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Hey there chica it's Justin. Man it's been a long while since I've talked to you, but hey let's not forget each other. So what have you been up too. Not much here just about to get my braces off on the 2nd of may and my b-day is on the 4th. How cool is that. Oh yeah by the way the reason for the post is because I loved the poem that you put in your blurty. Well gots to go so don't be scured to write back. Laterz. (Reply to this) (Thread) |
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