Christine (fozzybear) wrote, @ 2005-03-04 14:40:00

Current mood:

tired

growth
I don't know who I'm supposed to be. I mean, I'm supposed to be me.

Sometimes I don't treat Jon the way he deserves to be treated. He deserves full blown respect and love and everything. And I feel like I don't give him that.

I want to be the girlfriend he deserves. I want to be the person he wants me to be. Only thing is, he wants me to be the way I am. But does he really? I wonder.

I am who I am. Just like God said. lol. There is no changing unless absolutely necessary. And I wonder if I could give up who I am for him. I love who I am...and so does he...and so does everybody else. I'm witty and funny and clever. But, am I mean too?

What makes a person mean? Is it the things they do? The things they say? Is it because they hurt others intentionally? Or accidentally?

I want to be the girlfriend he deserves. I want to be that girlfriend. I don't want to ruin this. I don't want to lose him. I can't lose him. But, I can't be somebody I'm not.

He says that isn't what he wants. He wants me to be me, because I'm not perfect, and he loves that about me.

I will be nicer to him. I'm too sarcastic and cold and mean. He doesn't deserve that. So very few people do.

I'm growing as a person. Into a woman. I still see myself as a young lady. I just want to grow out of this confusion. Grow into a better person...a better daughter...a better sister, friend, student....

..a better girlfriend.

~Chris~

WhAt ArE YoU tAlKiNg AbOuT?? saritaconpapas 2005-03-04 19:14 (link)

CHRISTINE DIANA FORBUS, i dont know what has gotten into you but, you are one of the greatest people i know. "I'm too sarcastic and cold and mean" shut up chris, if you were TRUELY like this, i dont think me and sofa and everyone would be your friend and hang out with you. christine babe, you cant change for jon overnight, believe me i've tried, but babe come on, dont try to fix something if it isnt broken. it seems to me, and from what i hear, that you and jon are just peachy keen. your happy and im sure that he is too. why do you need to change yourself if you guys are doing so well?? if you need someone to talk to, member your prima is here!! :) I LOVE YOU!! *SMOOCHES!* (Reply to this) (Thread)