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blacktape (forabluegirl) wrote,
@ 2003-07-19 19:24:00
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    i am low life scumm eh
    Apparently it is ok for me to talk about calculus and English and science while i am in high school,

    but it is not ok for me to have a political opinion before i’ve “have me an education”, says then man who made racial comments at dinner in the presence of the race he was commenting on.

    He said that the AIDs in africa would never be cured and it was useless for the involvement of the united states. He also said that bush was doing a fine job.

    i know that u shouldn’t talk politics in this family because i; “you are wrong because you don’t have a job, and you don’t know what’s like in the real world”

    excuse me if i must, anyone can read, anyone can watch the news. there are a wide variety of sources in every political field saying the same thing. and i’m sorry for my self that no one in my family takes the time to understand the international events in the world.

    I cannot under stand how someone, who is dying of cancer, and is being treated by chemo therapy , and who has been in and out of treatment for more than 6 years can sit there and say it’s useless to try and fight AIDs. Right now i am huffy mad, and i do not care who tells me these things, or what is wrong with them. I shouldn't have to have sympathy for someone because they have been slowly dying. It is not my fault that no one wants to hear what i have to say.

    and obviously i need to go get me a college degree and work in the real world before i can understand politics. even though it is all so clean and clear.

    right now it is not the world i don’t understand. it is my own family. everytime i turn around i am being told that i do not know what i am talking about. everytime i talk to someone i am harassed for what i’m wearing.

    i had my unity sweatshirt on with the black and white hands holding each other. my grandpa says “you don’t understand what you’re wearing” // fuck. i don’t fucking understand him. i know he grew up in the 30s and 40s and he hates blacks. but fuck, i’m not gonna sit there and have some one that i’m supposed to love, and who’s supposed to love and accept me criticize my friends. i do not even care what he thinks until he says something straight up racist. Then my grandmother tells me “well, you are racist to your grandfather and me, and your parents” i do not understand her logic and definition of ‘racist’, but last time i checked we were all white, but who knows. i don’t.

    so anyways.

    margaret. i’m sorry for what i said. i didn’t mean it in an offensive way. i know what you are going through. i’m sorry.

    i know you probably don’t care. and that’s fine. right now i’m living with a family who doesn’t care, i’m reading and hearing about friends who don’t care. so in turn i don’t care. i feed off the people around me. when i look for guidance and opinion i am told i won’t understand. when i give my own opinion i’m criticized. i don’t know what i’m supposed to say that doesn’t offend anyone. i guess i will take a break from being online, from being involved in people’s lifes, from caring about my family, from caring about my friends, and lastly from believing in myself.

    because when i believe in myself, people stop believing in me, because i am not believing in them.

    i’m sorry that i am a bitch. that is all that i am. and ignorant, faithless bitch. i am supposed to give my life to god. OF COURSE my grand father would know even though he leaves before communion every sunday. but whatever. people don’t have to believe in and act in their ‘beliefs’ before they try and sell them to someone else.

    All that i’ve learned is the Christian faith in this man is fucked up. and from what i know about the bible and god, is that all creatures are accepted. hopefully he will go to heaven when he dies.. i don’t really want to talk to him. i cannot have a conversation with any member of my family without being accused of treason and falsehood.

    if i am so false, why would i be going to volunteer my next two weeks and NOT get paid. why would i work my ass off at camp, why would i want to look for a peaceful stance in my community and try to lobby for a better environment in all forms of living.

    i don’t understand.

    i care so much. but i don’t understand.

    i guess i will know when i get that fancy engineering degree, won’t i.

    that is all. i’ve beaten myself with many sticks and i’m about buried.

    i don’t know when i’ll write again.

    also, amy if you are reading this. i am supposed to talk to you i guess. i don’t know. all i can say with out going into something so private in this public ness is that i am not mad at you..



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2003-07-19 23:10 (link)
I, love you...

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2003-07-20 10:06 (link)
hah thanks. camp people are insane. well just the cits

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2003-07-20 13:32 (link)
yeah crazy to immagion that as of next year i will be part of the crazy gang.

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2003-07-20 19:11 (link)
mm yeh
hopefully you'r group will be better. i hear the 1st yers suck

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2003-07-20 13:43 (link)
Threat rating: Low. You are annoying, but too much
of a softy tree hugger to pose any threat to
the mighty machine of Republican progress. And
the FBI know where you live.

What threat to the Bush administration are you?
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2003-07-20 19:07 (link)
that is awesome. haha

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2003-08-08 03:14 (link)
hey whast your live journal name. i just got one. wanted to add you.

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2003-08-08 09:09 (link)

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2003-08-17 16:37 (link)
i have livejournal and xanga. so i don't really spend so much time on my background. also. if i did it would be black
and automatically stereotypically goth since i can't do html backgrounds.

yes i love sam rosenthal and his music.

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2003-08-21 18:49 (link)
it's cool .. thnks.

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The Ignorance of the Right
2003-09-02 07:48 (link)

I found your journal when I clicked on the Anti-Bush link created when I inserted that into my own journal that I just opened. Don't feel too bad about your parents/grandparents and their ignorance towards your views. Things in this country have changed dramatically and you can pinpoint it back to the 1996 election really.

After Newt Gingrich and the neoconservatives grabbed control of congress they tried to shove a lot of ridiculous agenda down people's throats and then hoped to grab the White House. When Clinton destroyed Bob Dole, things changed for the worst. Crazy pundits and commentators like Rush Limbaugh, Ann Coulter, and Bill O' Reilly came out screaming and accusing of everything they could. They spend at least $30 million investigating Whitewater to find nothing and then prosecute Clinton for perjury based on his affair with Monica.

When they couldn't fully impeach him they got even more angry. Bush had his minions illegally steal the election in Florida (Katherine Harris and Jeb Bush paid a Private REPUBLICAN firm to purge 90,000 Democratic Minority voters from the rolls) and since then they have used corporate entities like Fox News and MSNBC which have all contributed to the Bush campaign and whom Bush has tried to give massive perks to, to spin EVERY issue Bush's way. The liberal media claim made by conservatives is so transparently false that you have to scrape for National Public Radio for something remotely liberal.

All the progress made in the past four decades has been rolled back in three years of the Bush Administration. We have more hostility towards us then ever before because Bush is an imperalist who scoffs at our allies. To other countries we ARE Hitler and the Germans.

Racism, class warfare, pelting the poor by taking everything from them to engulf the Rich in more tax cuts, while our deficits hit the largest amounts ever in the history of the country is just a small sample.

Bush has cut EPA funding and directed them to squash reports while they relaxed rules on polluting companies (who contribute quite well to his campaign) and it has damaged the environment severely.

Hell even after that blackout this past month, Bush eliminated plans that called for alternative energy routes and went right back to his make money for my pals routine.

The man is pure evil. And since his false inception as our "President", Republicans or Conservatives have become the most ignorant people on the face of the Earth.

They truly believe they are right and are not to be questioned. They have no use for the word "Compromise" and they are making so many enemies we will be the focus of a World War if they had their way.

So the fact that your family isn't caring about your opinion isn't an isolated incident... it's a national epidemic.

The only way to cure it is to vote all these bastard Republicans out. Starting with Bush in 2004.

Help the movement and get your friends voting Democrat.

We need to stop this asshole before it gets worse! :)


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Re: The Ignorance of the Right
2003-09-02 18:07 (link)
WOW you are amazing. i'm gonna add you to my friends. list
i don't post much on blurty. i use live journal/

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Re: The Ignorance of the Right
2003-09-03 03:15 (link)

I added you to my friends list, and opened up a LiveJournal and moved my entries over there. It turns out all my friends have accounts there as well. Look for me over there as MessiahRp as well, and let me know what your name is there. :) I'll add you to my list.


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Re: The Ignorance of the Right
2003-09-03 08:13 (link)
mylivejournal. is

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2003-11-13 23:14 (link)
You people are intelligent, I like you.

Think for yourself,
Question Authority.

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2003-11-14 20:12 (link)
thank you.
i do not post in blurty anymore.
i have one at livejournal.

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