| Current mood: |  nerdy |
| Current music: | number one on the used cd (the new morning car ride song) |
FINALLY
god my interenet has been so shtity and i havent been able to go to liek barely any websites :( anyway i dunno what to say hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm well my moms boyfreind is out of jail and is working at toys r us.. thats just sad and embarasing.. its a kids store.. psychotic ex-inmantes shouldnt work there. ughhhhhh i cant belive my mom let him back ni the house.. she was on the phone w/ him telling him how her psychologist said that she shoudlnt let him live w/ her b/c hes bringing her down and my mom is spending so much money on him and hes not spending a DIME on her. it pisses me off so much, hes just using her. and she doenst even love him anyway.. shes still in love w/ tom.. her ex boyfreind.. (who looks like my freind drake haha) but anyway yeah thats a fucked up situation.. bleh.. my mom is pissed off at me b/c i didnt go to her house last weekend..w hich makes no sense b/c i said i woudlnt go there if cal came back.. god it makes me so mad.. anyway lets see.. well i think my sister is doing alrighjt, i sent her her christmas presents and a card, she sent me a card but no presnets yet hehe well anyway i dont think i updated since last tuesday night when i had my dance performance.. that was a bummer.. well that weekend my dad said that i coudlnt have my car if i was staying there, so i drove my moms car to school on tuesday, then on teusdsay night after my perofmrance my mom said that her license got expried on her car that i drove, so i had to come back to my dads so i had a car to drive.. she freaked out and was cryign and screaming adn said she wnats to kill my dad, it was terrible i came home and i cant even explain how pissed off/upset i was ogd it makes me so maddddddd but anyway i went to my psychiatrist the toher day and i got 100mg mroe added to my medicine which is now 400mg which is a hell of alot, it makes me really hhyper alot, but its suppsoed to even out my mood.. and its really not im still having big highs and low lows but it may not have kicked in yet, i hoep it works :( then i got this stuff called risperdal.. its supsoed to help when i liek freak out either really pissed off/dperesed or having a hypomanic episode.. i hate being bipolar :( all these medicines make me crazy im alwyas dizzy and stuff its terrible. but anyway lets talk about somethign else.. things are gonig pretty good w/ my freinds, altho i dtno really hang out w/ them much b/c i alwyas stay home and read.. tahts really sad but i mean i dunno.. its all i really ever want to do.. ugh i need to be more social. i mgiht go hang out w/ my new freind drake and some other peopel on friday night bu ti dont know, im going on a trip w/ my dad from saturday until monday to visit my aunt and uncle. they are kinda hippy-ish, they rock! but hmm what else is ther eto say, oh god i cant waituntil the next degarssi episode!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! craig is going to have to decide between manny and ashley and ashley finds out about him having sex w/ manny behind her bakc.. oh god its gonig to be great!!! hmm oh yeah tomamrow we are doing a play during 2nd period, and some peopel from my dance class are oging to do swing dancing.. its quite dumb but oh well lol.. i hope noone comes to see it :( its goin gto be so lame anyway exams are on thurdsay and friday.. and im screwed :( bleh oh well we'll see how it turns out.. i have a d in science and math :( oh well at least its not an f.. altho i dunno if it will be afte ri take the exams.. im so worried.. well i dunno what to say.. OH YEAH i've found some new harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban pictures!! oh god daniel radcliffe, tom felton,a nd rupert grint are soooooooooooooooooooooooo gorgeious i cant explain it!! and i also got a magazine that had a bunch of pictures from the movie and lots of interviews and stuff! i cant wait for hte movie im liek pissing my patns everytime i read/see anyhting about harry potter! haha and i've been reading all the booiks like crazy (the 3rd, 4th, and 5th) i dont feel the need to read the 1st two seeing as i memorized the movies! haha i love quoting lines from the movies to people hehe even if it annoys them! anyway lets see, i've become better freinds w/ heather k. shes in my dance class, and iv'e known her for a few years, shes so adorable, shes my faovirte freshman! we talk abiout very interseting things which i wont state on here.. haha! ahh goodngiht
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