Abby (flipflopjunky) wrote, @ 2003-07-31 18:24:00

Current mood:

lonely

i cried so much i ran out of tears.....
i ran out of tears. so i was just laying there and looking at the ceiling blankly. then my mom walked in. she sat next to me.
her- i have to tell u sumthing
::silence::
her- honey i know u r going through a lot but i thought u need to know that last night i wasn't at grandma's
::silence::
her- ::sighs:: i went to the bar and i got drunk and i met up with some attractive and nice guy. and u can figure out the rest
:: i sit up::
me- mom how could u?
her- hey i thought u wouldn't be mad at me bc i talked to jared's mom and she said jared spent the night here.
me- so
her- abby i know ur in love and i can expect what happened. i was a gurl once myself
:: i lay down again::
her- do u want to talk about it
me- no. sorry
her- well u know u can always talk to me, because abby u know ur not the only one who lost sumone u loved.

i never thought of that. i always thought that she was fine with the divorce. i was never there for her.i cant be mad at her though. im to depressed. and i made a mistake to. but it felt right.

i decided to do what i always do when im depressed. at least for five minutes. even though i knew it was gonna hurt. i went to the garage and took out the basketball jared got me. i started shooting it. but for sum reason i was then angry. and threw the ball hard at hoop. i fell and started crying. of course of my luck alex pulled in. he saw me and rushed over.
him- abby whats wrong
me- ::crying::
he then sat down next to me and rubbed my sholders
him- its ok abby its going to be ok
me- no it wont!!!!!! jareds gone and hes not coming back!!!!!!!!! ::more crying::
him- abby im so sorry. if it helps i broke up with kelsey
me- no it doesn't

i threw the ball into the street and ran into the house. how would that make it better. even though i did like him and he probally knew it. but still. agh i feel like crap. im gonna cry some more.

(Reply from suspended user)

	flipflopjunky 2003-08-01 12:24 (link)
	well i dont think im gonna have a baby bc he used protection but i guess i could get tested for stds. god how could of i been so stupid. its going to be weird going there. i miss jared. can we not like go for a week. i might be better then. maybe abby (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	simplypeachy 2003-08-01 11:57 (link)
	i'm sorry about your heartache, i know how that is. and sex just makes it harder. just please be careful and don't do anything drastic. feel better, dear. -becca. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: flipflopjunky 2003-08-02 10:47 (link)
	i think im under control... i cant tell. thanx for caring. abby (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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