please tell me it's only a nightmare...
"I don't think we're meant to be together."
No .. just no .. it can't be all over. This is a nightmare someone please wake me up from it because it cannot be true. How can it be? Just this morning everything was okay, everything was fine. I loved him .. and he loved me. And now it's all changed. He doesn't even want to be friends with me.
-tear slips down, replaying what happened-
"I love you too and I just want things to go back to normal."
I have never been so hurt and confused in my whole life. When just hours ago all he wanted was a promise I'll never leave him ... now he doesn't? I just don't understand how it can all change so quickly over a stupid stupid stupid fight.
I know this has all been said before .. but Aaron, no matter what you choose to believe you know somewhere in your heart that I do still love you. More than I should, even. And unlike you, I can't just drop all the feelings I have about you that's been building up over the past year, after a stupid fight. I'm sorry I was ever mean to you, I'm sorry I ever doubted you, I'm sorry that you don't trust me ... I just want to know how in one day you could bring me up so high I felt like I was flying then crush me down so hard that it's getting harder and harder to even breathe..
-starts crying, quickly wipes her tears away as her vision starts to blur-
"Maybe we just need a break."
I should just .. give up on this. I can't believe that I've lost him twice .. and this time it wasn't his fault. How could I be so stupid? God, this update is getting to be so pointless. But .. maybe he was right? Maybe we're not meant to be .. I don't know. I'm finding that too hard to believe. Then again .. I don't even know what to believe in anymore..
"I don't even care I guess."
No...Don't just walk away
Pretending everything's ok
and you don't care about me...
Lie...No it's just no use
When all your lies become your truth
and I dont care...yeah
Could you look me in the eye
and tell me that youre happy now?
Would you tell it to my face?
It happened in a race
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?
You...took all there was to take
and left me with an empty plate
and you dont care about it
-clicks update, crawls back into her bed, hugging her pillow as her tears start falling more rapidly-
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