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running in circles on a straight street.
and i am crushed..
i read becca's blurty journals?.. and i wasnt supposed to?.. hm. how about that, a public online journal, that i stumbled across, and yet am not supposed to read. EVENTHOUGH i learned more about my best friend than i have in a year.. interesting. but, yet.. i promised her i wouldnt anymore. even though it was a one time thing, i will humour her because i love her. and i miss her. god. why does it always have to be 2 against 1?.. now even jolene is being vague with me..
my birthday is in 4 days i believe?.. but it doesnt really matter, they are going away camping for the weekend leaving me here. by myself. yeap, its a nice feeling. maybe i will hang out with evan?.
i think today i realized i have lost all feelings for him, there still with be that sudden smile when i see him, but only because i care, nothing more. its too much work.
the people here are asking after you..