The words were as mystical as purring animals (fallchild09) wrote, @ 2003-11-02 14:35:00

Current mood:	depressed
Current music:	th white stripes- hardest button to button

update motherfucker lol hahahaaa
ok well me and david broke up now wtf is this..so i like attract stupid guys?! every guy i got out with like says they love me within a week, and i know they dont mean it, how could they? what is ther to love about me? i dont get it! everyone says stuff like i make theyre life more bearable..and i dont get that either because i am struggling to get thru each day alive, and yet im helping other people? how the fuck does that work? anywho...chris and erin broke up last friday. on halloween i went to my friend amandas sister house with sonny and alex. sonny and amanda are gonna go out. on friday b4 we went over there, sonny was over my house, and in less than an hour both of my parents got into car accidents..needless to say i didnt care too much about that..i was dissapointed tho..they both came out fine. while me and him were on the deck i started to cry, because of how bad everything is at home, and while im with sonny, he says stuff that makes me realize how ridiculous it is that they treat me like they do. he always makes me realize things. hes a good friend..there needs to be more people like him in the world. yea tonight im goign to the movies wiht him, and matt, and alex...maybe amanda if shes home. it should be fun...its always good to go be with friends when ur feeling as bad as i am. on friday when i started crying, i didnt stop till this morning (its sunday)..nothing could make me stop. idk whats wrong with me, but im sick of feeling like this...

	ghost_on_stage 2003-11-04 13:41 (link)
	would you be my mannequin? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	FallChild09 (Anonymous) 2003-11-08 11:13 (link)
	huh? lol jose i love you! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	baby_girl_52585 2003-11-08 02:09 (link)
	That is so disrespectful! You should never ever wish death on your own fucking parents. I don't care what they did to you. That is insane. Reading your journal, I almost felt bad for you until I came across that line. That is so disgusting. WTF. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	FallChild09 (Anonymous) 2003-11-08 11:12 (link)
	i have to reply to this annonomusly cuz it wont let me do it under my sn, but..yea...if you had any idea how badly my parents treated me then maybe you would have a say in this. but untill then, you have no right. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: FallChild09 baby_girl_52585 2003-11-08 11:19 (link)
	Don't talk to me about how bad parents treat their children because you don't know what mine have done to me, either. But, I still respect and love them, and I would never wish death upon them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: FallChild09 (Anonymous) 2003-11-09 14:44 (link)

my question is how can you possibly respect someone who constantly makes you miserable, and tells you that you are a piece of shit, and that u will never be good enough? i am really bad with emotional abuse, and im beginning to let it get to me when they say things like that. when i "wished death upon them", i was mad, and i wish they would leave me alone, and i know that what i said was wrong, and just because i said it doesnt mean that i meant it. i said it in the heat of the moment...i was getting feelings out of my system. im sorry if that made you look down upon me, but sometimes i cant help the things that i say. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: FallChild09 baby_girl_52585 2003-11-10 06:53 (link)

Hmm, as to what are you suppose to do...have you tried to talk to them? I know that sounds pretty insane, but if they are resonable people maybe they'd understand. Or, just let it run off your back and show them that you are good enough. Never let what other people say to you get you down. That's bull-shit. Seriously. That's exactly how I used to be, but then I realized the only way to be able to laugh in their faces was to prove to them and myself that I am good enough and I am not a piece of shit...that I can become whoever I want and make myself into something great...and that's what you have to do...show them...don't let it get you down, sweetie. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: FallChild09 (Anonymous) 2003-11-10 17:54 (link)
	hey..thanks for the advice. yea i have tried talking to them, and they r not good people. talking does not work. im definately gonna try to do what u sed. listen i really appreciate u talking to me about this. keep in touch. my aim sn is fallchild4591. yea ttyl..thanks again (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)