I was thinking in the shower this morning about how it freaks me out that so many of my friends are getting married and having babies, and becoming model middle class citizens. I feel like I'm trapped in some modern day version of The Stepford Wives (and not that stupid new comedy version). Maybe it's because I'm so out of the loop. I can't imagine even dating someone for more than six months, much less marrying them. I'm a homo, so babies aren't biologically unintentional (thank god). AND I'm a broke motherfucker that can barely pay my rent from month to month, much less buy a house for my new family.
Maybe it's just the whole cookie cutter-ness of it all, or maybe I'm just jealous? I don't know. What I do know is that the Lady S. (contrary to all her previous statements and her current denials) is totally M.I.A. since she got a boyfriend, and that blows. Don't get me wrong, I'm totally happy for her, and her boyfriend is cool as shit, but I guess she was the last person I expected that from. The fact that she keeps denying it whenever we do eventually talk, and tells me that she's been calling me nonstop for weeks (though I know that's a lie) just irks me more for some reason. I guess we'll talk whenever we talk. I'm not sweating it. (Though hilariously enough, I'm sure she'll be all mock indignant.)
People are so weird.
So yeah, it's the 4th of July, and it looks like it's going to be an exciting one. I don't have shit to do. I considered trying to drink myself into a black hole at the Beer Garden and making some lame attempt to pick up one of the frat boys there. ha ha. Or maybe I'll take a trip somewhere?? Not really having any money kind of limits my traveling ventures, but I'm sure I could find some kind of trouble if I looked hard enough. I wonder sometimes what would happen if I just vanished. But the fantasy usually involves me being abducted by spacecraft....
I guess that movie Cocoon created a lot of misconceptions.
Okay, I'm rambling here, and just being a grump. I should split and do some work now. H-O-L-LA!
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