Cole (evilcoleslaw) wrote, @ 2008-01-02 13:54:00

Vivisection
That word sounds cool. What it describes is horrible though. Titles are often irrelevant, however.

I'm feeling a massive ease of the pressure that's been pushing on my chest for so very long. I hope I didn't shift it to someone else. I was just trying to relieve it before it crushed me completely. It's over though. I can breathe again, and I can take care of anything else that pops up because of it.

2007 was a giant disappointing ball of crappy times and boredom for me--not that it didn't have it's bright points. 2008 has started off on a very weird note. The aforementioned paragraph's situation, a few new firsts for me, situations in constant unsettling motion. I've been drunk as hell, I've hung out with friends, I've lost a relative. I've committed several misdemeanors and at least one felony already. I've developed some sort of spine and the ability to speak my mind. And I've kissed a girl--one that I shouldn't have. It was only a second, and it was wrong, and I knew it, and I felt it. That said, I don't regret it. Sometimes there are just things you need to do. I'm sure that's understandable.

2008. Hm. It's either going to be a good year, or a completely horrible end to a great many wonderful things.

sadward 2008-01-10 00:44 (link)

At some point, I think everyone has a moment where they know for sure that what they do will predict the outcome of the new year. Well, maybe not. Maybe I say that because I'm in that situation. Regardless. You're right. It's either going to be good or extremely horrible. No grey areas. Sometimes there are just things you need to do. It should be understandable. It really should be. For some, they refuse. &it makes things really hard for me. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	evilcoleslaw 2008-01-10 02:44 (link)
	I seem to be lucky then. The people I like to get to know usually wind up understanding more than not. Which is good, because kissing your best friend/friend's girlfriend usually doesn't turn out very well. XD (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)