Cole (evilcoleslaw) wrote, @ 2007-11-17 06:00:00

Current mood:	disappointed
Current music:	Metallica - Ride the Lightning

T+168:00:00
Time plus One-hundred sixty-eight hours.

1 Week. What's so special about it? Nothing really. It's just another arbitrary unit of measure to remember something by. One week ago, etc... Add on about three more and it's a month. Add on about 11 more of those and it's a year. About ten of those for a decade, and ten of those for a century, and then ten centuries for a millennium. What's after that? I don't know. I don't want to. It doesn't really matter though. I expect to be gone long before a century. Hell, there's no guarantee I'm going to make it to a month.

The thing that's special about arbitrary measures of time from an event is the event itself. In my case, a not so fun little fiasco. I can't get it out of my head. I'm so completely confused. I don't know where to turn or whether or not to trust anymore. Is something built on substance or on deception? I don't know, and that fact alone makes me horribly sad. I suppose I'll know before too much longer.

sadward 2007-11-24 17:39 (link)

Is something built on substance or on deception? I am currently asking myself the same question. Can we ever do right? When built on substance, it isn't a concern of being right or wrong. It's the meeting of finding a mutual middle. More often than not, when foundations are built on deception, you don't know until some mishap, yeah? Before that realization, you blindly built on substance. Slowly but surely, you find... you're never right. Which then, you realize it was deception. Perhaps I'm speaking too personally to give an universal opinion with this speel. Substance or deception. &when the time is right, either or, it all crumbles to some extent. Maybe enough to be mended. Maybe not. But who's to say you cannot have a healthy relationship built on deception? To tell all truth, assuming in doing so everything would okay is assuming you do know wrong. Things untold can be a benefit. No one needs to know everything. By moral, that's a corrupt statement. Sure. But you know... by telling all, tension is inevitable to built. However, I think that's where lies the difference with substance. If indeed there is substance, then through all the tension and the hell and the arguing, an agreement is met. A middle is established and the situation is mended. A speel indeed. One relationship built on substance and/or deception that falls rocky is no reason not to trust. I'd see it as a precaution and an experience to learn signs as to whether or not you are building a substancial realtionship or one with devious foundation. Regardless, eveyone fucks up. Everyone tends to be selfish sometimes. Not that it makes it right for it being a majority of emotion for the population, but that it should be granted leniancy. A situation called for a talk through. A situation that calls for substance &to find that medium to agreement. However... that does not gaurentee the other party will fold to admitting their wrong. In that event. fuck it. ps. I did not revise. With that being admitted, I hold responsibilty for my grammatical errors and the like =D (Reply to this) (Thread)

evilcoleslaw 2007-11-25 19:32 (link)

All that's true. For me though, the question is horribly complex. Or rather, the situation behind it is very complex. I just want to know the answer of the question, to get it all over with. I'm at one of those points where if something's going to fall apart, I just wish it would go ahead and do it already. I'm just not sure anymore whether it's a situation in which I'm dealing with someone being sincere, or with someone who'll tell me what I want to hear so I shut up. The thing about trust with me is that I usually give people the benefit of the doubt at first. Should someone earn my mistrust though, it's not so easy to smooth over. Not that I universally trust just anyone--deception is part of life. I just try to trust that people will be the person they've shown themselves to be--for better or worse. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)