. (eradicated_soul) wrote, @ 2003-07-01 11:55:00

Current mood:	thoughtful
Current music:	Kenna- "Freetime"; Rockell -"In a Dream"

.... don't know what to tittle this....
My parents got in Sunday night. They are going to be here for a week. I've never been so happy to see them in my life. My mother and I got into an argument last night but it ended pretty quickly. She understands that I am growing up now and she is trying to accept it as best as she can. I used to say that I hated my mother, but I guess that is what every teenager goes through at least once and has to get over-hating their parents. She has done so much for me how could I have been so blind? I should apologize for everything I've put her through b/c I sure put her through a lot. I appreciate everything she has done for me but I don't think she really knows that. I dont' think I have ever told her how much I appreciate her, not even once. We aren't very affectionate toward one another. I honestly think I have only told her I loved her less than a hand full of times in the past 3 years. That is so sad, now that i really think about it I feel so bad. No wonder she thinks I hate her - which isn't the case at all. I wish I could tell her how much I appreciate and love her everyday but it just feels weird after not doing it for so long. My parents are going to move again in August and that is when I am planning on going back. I don't think I can stay here longer than that w/o seeing my friends and my little niece. She is so big now, says so many things. She never stops talking, it's so cute. I haven't seen my friends baby in a while either and she turned one a few months ago. I didn't even get to go to her b-day party. I need to go visit her when I get back b/c I already missed enough. The only reason I want to stay here in NY is b/c my sister is having a baby--she is 2 1/2 months pregnant right now. I want to be there for her the way she's been there for me especially these past few years. I want to be here to decorate the baby's room, I want to help organize the baby shower, and I want to be in the delivery room if it's possible. I want to be there when the baby is growing up, to watch her first steps and hear her first words. I don't want to miss any of that but I'm afraid I might have to.
When I find out exactly when I'm leaving I'll let you guys know-not that you care lol but still. Take care.

	(Anonymous) 2003-07-04 13:32 (link)
	your such a sweety (Reply to this) (Thread)

	awwwwww slutsicle 2003-07-07 17:01 (link)
	I MISH MY FUCKSICLE!!!! awe .. i hope ur takin care of ur self.. n when u do come back i hope to c u dispite my constant "LOCK DOWN" im in ... remember.. lying gets u NO WHERE.. well i love you slut take care Always, Slutsicle (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: awwwwww eradicated_soul 2003-07-14 15:57 (link)
	Hey Slutsicle, How are you? I'm ok. Thanks for your comment. Um hell yeah we are going to chill together when I get back. Take care, I love you too and I'll see you soon if all goes well. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)