I have this elaborate thought in my mind... and I can't seem to express it.
You ever feel so willing to be with someone , in any way, and at the same time, not willing to sacrifice your pride and esteem? I feel somewhat jealous... but there's nothing specifically to be jealous about. What's killing me is the ability to shatter my heart with one of her impulsive encounters. I'm in no place to question those things, or to even ask it not to happen... but it's a conflict when it comes to giving of myself. Because this is so different. This isn't any girl that I can just push to the side once shit goes down. Every action pertaining to her carries so much more. Love resonates... in everything. And I can't stand the thought of giving myself to her, freely, and knowing that...
I can't even say it. I can't...
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