April (antisocial2123) wrote in emolyrics, @ 2004-01-24 22:00:00

i haven't cut in a week... it's not that long, but at least i have a little bit of confidence and i sort of believe that i can stop. sorta...
i didn't do it every day. i don't get any.. pleasure out of it. it just takes my mind off whatever's bothering me. gives me something else to focus on...
just one week without it has been hard. and this week... there has been quite a few days where i would have cut. but didn't. i cried instead. i wrote songs, i played guitar. talked to friends. but i still felt the need to cut. i just... didn't. when i do cut, i don't use a razor or anything. i use a safety pin. and i make a ton of little scratches on my arm. they don't even bleed usually...
::sigh::... i hate everything.
my awesome friend liz, well her boyfriend broke up with her yesterday. because of me. he likes me more than her. i feel so terrible. i mean, i'm not that great... ::sigh::

	watchmedrown 2004-01-24 23:10 (link)
	stay strong sweetie <3 (Reply to this) (Thread)

	amorous 2004-01-25 03:37 (link)
	Hunnie, stay strong. Not cutting will be the best decision you'll ever make. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	hi spooky_pixie 2004-01-25 05:54 (link)
	Hey.. well u dont no me or anythign. but i no what ur going through with the whole cutting thing.. and making the decision to stop is the best thing u can do... cause eventually one day when things r bad it wont b the first thing to come to ur mind.. and ull be happier for it.. u dont want to have the scars that remind u everyday of the things u wish had never happened (Reply to this) (Thread)

	surfacing 2004-01-25 09:52 (link)
	glad to hear youre stopping. wear an elestic on your wrist and snap every time you have a craving. that will make the mind remember it as pain and you won't want to do it again. (Reply to this) (Thread)