okay. needing some help here. im distant from all my friends and i dont know why. i dont think they like me anymore because of it. and i really miss my ex. and he always makes me upset. and most of the time we fight over nothing and i get upset for no reason. i feel like an idiot. im kind of alone, but im kind of content with it. i feel safe.
got a song for that?
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2003-09-12 10:23
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I'm in the middle of a break-up after 2 years together and he's a piece of shit and the whole time I wanted out of that relationship but I was stuck, I knew I didn't love him but I still cared immensely. It's a long story but he broke up with me first, was "testing" me for 3 months over some bullshit, (his manager hit on me and rather than cause problems I just didn't tell him) and then finally I wound up hooking up with the singer of a rather big band and told the ex and he wigged and said we couldn't talk anymore, so for almost 3 weeks now we haven't talked and it's absolutely tearing me apart inside, but when I read your entry I started thinking that I would not want to be in your shoes, and that maybe I prefer being completely cut off from him because to attempt to be friends, or even just civil, while there are so many fucking emotions swirling about, muddling both people's thoughts, the paranoia of the other person meeting someone new and just leaving you hanging.. Well who needs that? Yeah I cry sometimes, and yes I'm lonely, as I wasn't allowed to have friends when we were together, but I'm meeting people, going out, enjoying the relief that it's over. And hell, I'm 21 years old, I don't know how old you are, but chances are it's far too young to be dealing with relationships. There is so much to do out there, and living the married life so young is pointless. You just need to think these things to yourself: Do I really want to deal with these arguments and worrying about him fucking someone else and leaving me behind, or would i be better off using the classic slogan: "If you love something, set it free. If it comes back, it will last forever, but if it doesn't, it was never meant to be." Sometimes that's comforting. Also there is just a basic realization we have to acknowledge. We are relieved that it's over because it wasn't what we wanted, but we are sad because it wasn't what we wanted. Seriously, give it 2 months and you'll be big pimpin again. Also, pot is the only drug you should be doing to help you through a break-up. Anything else will leave you worse off, especially anti-anxiety drugs, so stay the fuck away from that shit. Just get high and listen to good music and you'll be good. Sorry this is so long, I just have a lot to say at the moment. ha.
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