pedro (elpedroni820) wrote, @ 2003-07-29 01:17:00

home...
well i find myself in coalinga, but i'm not in the usual pissed off mode i am when i come home. i'm actually doing ok. i mean i'm very happy with my current situation, even though i miss the whole CHAH thing, if you could believe it or not. well for the last nite ceremony heun and i did come up with something quite clever. we decided to pay a tribute to our good friend spanx. actually we just reenacted some of the most embarressing times he's had while at CHAH, but the audience seemed to approve. heun and i thought it was a great idea, and it was.
well the last nite was pretty fun, the talent show was funny as always. i did a solo act, i played the role of a future teller by smelling people's shoes. spanx's smelly sandal ended up out of the window. it was good, he didn't even expect it.
but the next morning i left i wasn't as happy as could be. i actually recieved a letter from an anonymous person, basically saying that i'm defensive and stating the poor job i did while i held my position as staff. also i couldnt' stand to the see the face of my li'l bro isaac. he was distraught when heun and i left. even though erika showed up with my parents and i was happy for that, but the drive home just seemed a little longer and the few tears that managed to sneak by the large lump in my throat went hardly noticed. i remember driving home and looking at heun's face. i was somewhat confused by the look, but i knew he was distraught as well, but we all know how macho heun is. seeing that, i turned away and pretended to look at the rolling hills just as one leaves the bay area and comes along into the central valley. that's when i started to remember, remember the times heun, spanx and i shared. all the late night talks, the cheesy sticks, the topless soda run, and everything else. it was too much, and the lump in my throat was the size of a cantaloupe. i felt a few tears run down my cheeks. i closed my eyes and i could see spanx, ordering a "plastic bag...regular", the late nite convo's about the evil and tyranny of the female species, and singing "the boys of summer" by the ataris with heun and spanx. i chuckled, wiped away the tears and looked at heun again. he was asleep. but i knew he was dreaming about our CHAH experience, trying to relive it in anyway possible because the CHAH program was our summer, it was our time.

Crazy Times were Those (Anonymous) 2003-07-29 23:52 (link)

Well, its glad to see that you remember those good times peter, there were a lot of them. and i think that even though we had some rough points in our friendship this summer, we came out stronger than ever. as you can imagine, after you guys drove off that morning i took a few steps back, sat on the bench and broke down. few people have the power to do that to me. i also remembered times spent together with you guys this summer, jokes we would say and whatever else would happen behind those closed doors at night. this was definetly a summer to remember, oh and screw whoever wrote that letter. ~spanx 'peter, whats that word for fuck you bitch?' ~vela (Reply to this) (Thread)

We are the boys of summer (Anonymous) 2003-07-30 01:16 (link)

Petie, I'm not mr. macho. I just refused to cry in front of you, erika, and your parents. It did hurt to see that excruciating expression on spanx's face. i told him so myself. I'm actually dealing well with the lost of such a great summer. Sure it had drama, but that's what makes things memorable. I will always remember the song by Brand New called Jude Law and a Semester Abroad. I remember how you and i would rock out to that song. It is so apporopriate for how Spanx feels right now about the deterioration of his relationship. I miss CHAH so much that I could probably die from depression, but instead i have embraced my sadness. I cried it all out when i got dropped off home by you. i did not notice you swallowing back those lumps; i was so preoccupied preventing my own tears from streaming down my face. It was a battle of will. I'm so gonna make you come back for at least one more year to be a couselor. I'll kick your ass if i havve to buff guy. We need one more summer together at the very least. Spanx take care man...i know love is hard, but you have to move on. I know how it feels. i felt it before too and i know it racks your mind and takes away all your energy, but you need to look forward. Much love to you guys and all of CHAH. I miss you. Heun (Reply to this) (Thread)