watashi no kokoro ga morikoroshita; Eirhjien (eirhjien) wrote, @ 2002-11-11 10:01:00

Guess I'm talking again
Now I'm listening to Unmei no Deai by Malice Mizer...there's nothing quite like gothic violin to wrap you up in your emotions. I had a dream the other night. Ryan was in it. The whole setting was really eerie...one of those dreams where you're in a familiar place but its dark and deserted. He kissed me in it, but I can't remember why...most of it has faded like dreams tend to. It was very strange. I really wish I had some idea on what the things I see in my sleep mean. My dreams have become vivid and prophetic lately. Everything that I dream comes true in some form. I dreamt Grace and Tashi would get into some sort of danger, and now Grace is out of school permanently for something terrible...and Tashi's disappeared as well. I dreamt the exact place and meal I would have for dinner today, and I've never even been to the restaurant until then. Needless to say, its strange...I have never dreamt vividly in the past...never. And now I have strange dreams where I am running...running so fast...and then I begin to lean...down, down...and then I'm running on all fours, and the world is darting by, and I'm ecstatic and free. Running on all fours...heh, that sounds so strange. But in the dream I can feel every muscle shifting, and I don't tire, and it feels wonderful. Maybe I really am a gazelle deep down inside. Most likely I'm just affected. Everyone seems to think so. But how could the crazy things I imagine and dream be so bad, when so many of them feel better than the best things in my waking life? I look forward to the dreams now...they offer glimpses into the coming events in my life. Maybe my mind has awakened to something? I doubt I'll ever know. Ah, the safety of madness...