Erik's Journal (ego_estrada) wrote, @ 2003-05-16 23:28:00

Current mood:	upset
Current music:	Dan Hill: Sometimes When We Touch

Your Hearts Not The Only One Breaking...
*bites his lip trying to hold back tears, knowing how bad what he's about to do will hurt*

I don't know why, but I just don't feel like this is right anymore. I can't do it. I can't mess up their lives. Or be in the way of the love they have. I should just let them be together. Without me.


*calls you, trying to keep his voice from giving away an sign that he's about to lose it* Dan.. I don't know how to do this or say this, so I just will. I I..I can't. Marry you. Be with you. I just can't. I, I I I'm sorry. *hangs up, sighs*



*tries to sound as happy as possible, but knows he'll fail* I Baby, I, damn this is hard. I ....I think maybe you should marry Dan. Just Dan. I'm sorry. *hangs up, not knowing what else to say*


*starts to cry, leans back against his bedroom wall, pulling his knees to his chest* I did the right thing, right? I think I did. So why does this hurt so bad?

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	ego_estrada 2003-05-18 02:51 (link)
	I know what I promised. But baby, I have to do this and you have to let me. Please. This isn't a forever thing. This is just a what I need to do right now thing. I'm sorry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

thrillermiller 2003-05-17 13:11 (link)

*listens to the message, sighs and dials Erik's number* Baby, I.. I... uh.. call me and tell me what's going through your mind. I mean, I just want you to be happy... but I love you. If I can't make you happy, tell me what will. I mean, if you want to be with America, I will step aside. *sighs, fighting back tears* I'm gonna go... my offer of you coming to hang with America, myself and my family, you are welcome to. I love you. *hangs up* (Reply to this) (Thread)

ego_estrada 2003-05-18 02:57 (link)

*calls you back, drumming his fingers against his night stand* Dan, I know you want me to be happy. I know that. Don't think that you can't make me happy, because that's not it. You can, and you do. I just need to do this for me. Please just try to understand? *sighs* Maybe coming to stay with you guys isn't such a good idea. But you two can have a good time. I want you to. Okay, I should go now. I'll call later. *hangs up* (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: thrillermiller 2003-05-22 15:08 (link)

*calls you back, after giving the phone the longest look after hearing that message* Erik, baby, if you don't want to come that's fine. Listen, I can understand if you need time to yourself. But you know we wouldn't mind you coming out here. Time together would be nice. Listen, I should go. Call me if you have anything you need to say, or if you just want to talk. You know I'm around. *hangs up and sighs* (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	reese_peice 2003-05-27 02:06 (link)
	Hey doll, don't forget about me :) I'll see you soon and have a great week. (Reply to this) (Thread)