Echo Schafer (echo_schafer) wrote, @ 2003-02-28 14:54:00

Current mood:	crushed
Current music:	love song for no one - john mayer

I know I haven't updated lately. I've been busy. School, work. Moving out of the dorms and into an apartment makes it a hell of alot more expensive and it means I've got to work more in order to pay my bills. My parents are helping some but I don't like to ask them for alot of money. Especially since my dad has this warped old fashioned way of thinking that women can't make it in the real world on their own.

I suppose Chance left for Michigan yestarday. I didn't hear from him at all. He said that no matter how busy either of us were, we'd see eachother before he left and that didn't happen. I'm not going to sit here and lie and act like I'm not disappointed about that. -runs her hand through her hair and sighs- I don't know.. I guess I'm starting to feel like he's right.. hell, we didn't know eachother that long, but when I was with him.. I just felt this insanely strong connection between us. But now it feels like we're drifting apart.

-twrils a strand of hair around her finger and glances over at one of the pictures she took of chance on valentines day-

But it always happens like this.. I meet a guy and I end up liking him alot.. and then for whatever reason it doesn't work out. I was hoping it would be different with him.

I'm think I'm pretty much just incapable of ever being loved.

Staying home alone on a Friday
Flat on the floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes are faded
And all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here

Would someone be willing to go kidnap John Mayer and bring him to me as some kind "Cheer up Echo, you're great." present?

take_a_chance 2003-03-01 23:48 (link)

*calls you but gets answering machine* Hey Echo.. its me.. sorry im calling so late...even though its still kinda early up here... uhh.. sorry i didnt catch you i hope your not sleeping or anything.. but i just figured i would give you a call.. and say hi.. oh and um i'll be back tomorrow afternoon.. i decided to come home early.. i.. i just really miss you Echo.. i really do.. im so sorry for acting the way i have been these last few weeks.. i feel like such an ass... and i hate to read how you are feeling.. that you seem to like a guy and then everything goes wrong... i really dont want to be another one of those guys........ but.. hey listen... my schedule is a lot less hectic now for these next weeks... so i hope that we can do something some time... and i really mean it this time... ah crap im gunna run out of time.. so i'll end it.. if you wanna give me a call.. call my cell-phone...otherwise i'll call you tomorrow or something.. bye (Reply to this) (Thread)