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Graduation
05/13/06
So... graduation... it was... it was what it was but it wasn't all that (sister act part dos) I don't know. It was weird. All of these family members telling me congratulations when I haven't done anything yet. I really haven't. I mean, I'm not done. What if I never get done? What if I'm one of those people like ALicia who turns 38 and still needs only one more class to graduate?? I don't know. It was just like it meant nothing to me. It wasn't special because I'm not done. And I don't know if I have faith enough to believe I will get done. I don't know. And then I had to tell everyone there I was a failure. It was the first time I told anyone I wasn't going to Boston. Yeah... so I feel like no matter what, even if I do actually get this dumb degree, I'm still a failure. I still didn't do what I said I was going to do. I don't know. I know I need to look at the things I've done, but all I can see are the things I didn't do. And people who told me they'd be there didn't show up. AMy didn't come... I'm hoping something happened. I think something happened, but she hasn't even e-mailed me yet to say sorry or just say, Hey couldn't make it... or something. Alicia said she was coming down, I called her twice, she hasn't called back. Darren didn't come, had some family thing I guess... I don't know. My cousin didn't come or send anything, neither did Mrs. Pauly. I odn't know. I was sad today, really sad. Tina wasn't completely there, she had stuff going on with her g/f I understand 'cause it was important, but it still was crazy. And now I'm leaving all these people and I didn't even get to say goodbye to most of them. It's not like high school where everyone is there and says I'll miss u keep in touch. It's so anti-climatic... I don't know, just strange feeling... strange... I think I'm going to go take a nap. haven't slept really in a bout three days... - Nyk
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(Anonymous)
2006-05-18 23:12
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You had already told me you weren't going to Boston. And I love the Sister Act 2 reference. -hg (Reply to this) (Thread) |
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