yesturday.is.gone. (dshbrd345) wrote, @ 2003-12-11 13:59:00

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Current music:	Finch-letters to you

Do you notice I'm gone?


I stayed home from school today 'cause I was super tried when I woke up this morning. Plus it was a maroon day.. and maroon days are an effing drag.
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I have drivers ed later tonight. woot.
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Yesturday was a half day. Lizz's mom picked me and her up at school and then we went to the mall. haaaha. Such a grand time. We went bra shopping!! It was great. I went up to some random guy and said.. 'hey we're looking at bras' and he turned around and walked away. ha. Then me and Lizz went out to her car while her mom did some more shopping and we put a sign on someone's car. We went to best buy and ran around looking for the digital cameras and then ran back to PacSun to find her mom. We kept trying on hats. boy oh boy, do I look funny in hats.=P Her mom is so funny. Anywho, They dropped me off at home & then Carlos brought me to my appoinment with my psyciotrist. I don't understand why I have to go. We don't talk about anything that I don't tell my not so close friends. Nothing personal. But oh well, if my mom wants to pay a hundred dollars a week so I can talk to some weird lady who doesn't shave her legs than I guess that's fine with me.
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I don't really know how I feel anymore. I'm not happy but I'm not sad. I guess I'm just numb to pretty much every emotion. Nothing is as fun as it used to be. Everything is the same. I really need change. I also need not to dwell on the bad things. I rarely ever cry anymore. It's like I forgot how to. I know I'm sad, I just don't feel it. I can't even explain it. I think I'm used to being depressed so I don't feel it anymore. I never tell people how I feel anymore. I just keep it all inside. I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to anymore. I don't really truly trust anyone.

	funkyald0goyum 2003-12-11 15:10 (link)
	oooh your blurty is preety whenever i have backrounds they work half the time its so weird i dont know why it does it. >=( (Reply to this) (Thread)

	dshbrd345 2003-12-11 15:16 (link)
	tehe thank you. I'd love to help but the truth is I don't know what I'm doing. My friend does it for me. but it sometimes it's the type of picture you use. Like.. it can't be an html or anything. Uhm.. something like that?=P (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	funkyald0goyum 2003-12-11 16:03 (link)
	hmm yea thanks in my livejournal - http://www.livejournal.com/users/funkyald0goyum i have a cool backround but recently it hasnt been showing up.. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	yay wittmister 2003-12-11 17:32 (link)
	for shizzle friends :) (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: yay dshbrd345 2003-12-11 19:29 (link)
	fo' rizzle nizzle bizzle gizzle.;) (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	okstaa124 2003-12-11 21:32 (link)
	im fuckin always here for ya (Reply to this) (Thread)

	dshbrd345 2003-12-12 06:44 (link)
	I know but you live so far away so it's hard.=/ but I love you Okee!!!!!! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)