| Current mood: |  predatory |
| Current music: | Pain - Jimmy Eat World |
In a moment, everything can change
Whoever said that sure knew what they were talking about. When I thought things were going so well I guess I was wrong yet again. So now I guess I'll just sit back and control my temper cause when I don't things just turn into one big cluster fuck. But hey, that's what I'm good at right, I always take a good thing and piss it all away, it's what I'm good for. My advice for anyone that knows me is to get out while you can, just up and leave cause at some point I'm going to fuck everything up and you all really don't need to go through that. So now I'll take some time to myself, figure out what's wrong with me, and make the necessary changes to fix the situation, if I can that is. I probably can't, I've probably already done too much and said too much to ever fix it. Here's a real idea, I'll just leave, go somewhere, anywhere, I don't care, neither does anyone else. I'll start a new life there, completely change who I am, be what the world wants and no one will ever know who the real me is.
That's the real question, who is the real me? Someone who's caring and loving, who drops everything to help out the people he cares about? Or is it a cold, unforgiving person, never making a real connection to anyone, always distant so that they can't hurt him? Which is it, one, the other, a bit of both, or neither. I really don't know myself anymore, oh well, just one more part of my fucked up life. I guess that's teh best descripton of my life, a fuck up, I was born a fuck up and that's how I'll die.
That's my story for the nite, if you don't know the situation, fuck off I don't care. I'm going to bed cause I have a test in 5 hours and I didn't plan on staying up this late so I probably won't talk to anyone tomorrow so just fuck off.
~JB
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2006-04-06 20:21
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"At the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about. Some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say, they're what you do. Some things you say 'cause there's no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply SPEAK FOR THEMSELVES" (Reply to this) (Thread) |
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