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Nisha (dreamsareevil) wrote,
@ 2011-05-17 18:12:00
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    Tired of the trips, tired of the falls, tired of the pain, tired of it all..
    Days like today make me hate myself.

    When does familial obligation end? I'm so tired of being used, and abused. Can you believe, I was actually told, actually TOLD "If I was more of a cruel person I'd have severely beaten your ass by now.."

    *sigh* Really? I pay everything. Everything. I don't want to be here any more than you want me here. I didn't want this - just like you didn't.

    Yet you consistently bite the hand that feeds,
    and yet I consistently stay

    Because you have no one else.
    Your other two children turned their back on you a long time ago.

    So I've been pacing the past couple of hours, wondering if it's going to end like it did last time. You punched me in the mouth, and I walked away for 2 years.

    Today wasn't supposed to be this way.

    Today was supposed to be a good day.

    I had gone to the doctor and gotten better antibiotics. All my labwork came back normal. And Steve sent so many love - filled messages I felt happy despite being sick.

    ..I just want it to end.

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2011-05-17 19:34 (link)
u need to crash sumwhere else when u fite. need to head here or vee's. cum on in to work tonite and cum hang out wit the wunderful mista iz.

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