Jenna (draind) wrote, @ 2003-10-07 17:11:00

Current mood:	okay
Current music:	Thrice - Send Me An Angel

Saturday after the candrive, I chilled here for a while + then around 6, everyone was telling me to go to the football game. so I was like whatever, + I went. Nick + Brandi came w/me, + we got there around 7:45. I had fun I guess, but it was raining :\.. I tried convincing Mother to let Nick come over afterwards, but she didn't feel like going back out to drop him off so he couldn't :(

Sunday, I had practice at 12 + I didn't really practice hard or anything [I didn't feel too well]. I got home around 2:30 + Nick came over at like 3:30. we chilled here for a while watching TV + movies + stuff. around 7:45, me, Meredith, Nick, + Tim [Hamlyn] went to the movies to see "School of Rock". that movie was soo funny lol. I suggest going to see it, it's worth the money. Mer barely talked to me during the movie [she was occupied, I was too kinda I guess]...

RIP Jareth Lawrence DelVecchio + Joshua Michael Beebe. I'll see you guys up there.. maybe then we can talk more..

Yesterday school was gay. like always. after school, Nick came over like always + we watched "Final Destination 2." that movie was pretty funny. my brother was being annoying, my dad wasn't home, + my mom was sleeping so me + Nick decided to get some alone time by paying my brother to go to Superquik [lol]. we didn't do anything, don't get the wrong impression, but my brother is stupid + annoying. well yeah, Nick left around 6:30 + that's all for that night..

Today was okay. I saw Nick alot in school, but he didn't come over afterwards :( .. me + my mom went to the mall/Staples after school, + I got a long sleeved shirt that says The Doors [they're a beast cuz I met their guitarist], a hoodie, + a sweater.

lately I've been feeling like I've lost all of my friends.. I mean, some of them can't hang out w/me, some of them are always mad at me, some of them have other friends that are more important, + some I barely see. I've been really sad lately, because it's like Nick's not only my boyfriend, but my best friend too. I mean I love seeing him + being w/him + stuff, but I wish I had a [female] friend right now too..

	ashbe_crazy 2003-10-07 18:41 (link)
	all i can say is i love jenna!!!!!!! (Reply to this) (Thread)

	draind 2003-10-07 21:36 (link)
	I LOVE YOU TOO! <3 Jenna (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

lstxinnocence 2003-10-07 22:55 (link)

That's a lot of Nick-ness! ^_^ .. What's up with that Monkey today? "With the top down, seat back, rollin' in my cadillac"..lol It's in my head. Anyways.. You haven't lost me hun. I'm always a walking distance, phone call, e-mail, IM away. lol. We will hang out soon, my mother is just a witch. But I haven't been hanging out with anyone [like I ever do anyway but..] because I'm sick. :( Yep.. ANd Jenna Marie can't get sick for Nick. Whoa that rhymed. lol I still heart my Jenna Marie! Don't forget that even if we don't talk for the longest time, I'm still and will always be here for you. :) <3 Ya.. Anus Quidit (Reply to this) (Thread)

draind 2003-10-09 20:53 (link)

hey Aynes.. yeah there was a lot of "Nick-ness" in that entry, mainly because not only is he my boyfriend, but he's my best friend right now too. I don't have anyone to really be with right now but him. everyone's either too busy for me, they don't like me anymore, or they can't hang out w/me. no offense, but it's really weird knowing that your mom doesn't like me, so you're really not just a walking distance away. you're more like a fight away, because I know how your mom would react if she found out that we hung out.. I love you Aynes, but I feel so alone right now. <3 Jenna (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

I wasn't in this entry.. (being sarcastic) belowthesurface 2003-10-08 17:02 (link)

You have friends Jenna, its just before when you hung out with guys all the time, you didn't have time to hang out with your female friends. Now that you have boyfriend, you expect your phone to ring off the hook. I don't have that many friends I hang out with. and "more important friends" somehow I felt that comment was towards me. Remember you were close with Kelsea over the summer, and barely asked me to hang out. Now that I hang out with her, its like I've done something wrong. and I don't always get mad at you, you gotta see that there has to be a reason I'm mad. I don't know what to tell you anymore, cause you don't see that I do want to hang out with you. Lately I don't want to do anything with anybody, cause I'm still upset. Jareth dying has made me pretty sad. I miss him so much. NOW take this as how I feel, not another begining to anotherarguement ok? I still love you and you know it. later Sam to the Izzerz (Reply to this) (Thread)

	just sayin hi inlovewityou143 2003-10-09 21:00 (link)
	hey Jenna just sayin hi tiffany (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

"you almost always pick the best times to drop the worst lines" draind 2003-10-09 21:04 (link)

you know, you're right about some things, but not everything. over the summer, I got close to Kelsea because you were always at Melanie's or at soccer. plus, you were mad at me most of the summer. you really hurt my feelings sometimes, because you're always criticizing me + telling me how wrong I am. you expect me to pity you, but you never show me any sympothy. at this point, I don't have any friends, but you don't wanna hear it so I'm not even gonna go on about that subject. listen to the song "Buried Myself Alive" by The Used. it's how I feel right now.. + you know, everytime you say you're not gonna get mad at someone, you always getting mad at someone, + 4/5ths of the time, it's me. <3 Jenna ps.. as your profile says to Jareth.. "You've gotten me to see life in a different way. To hold on to your friends, cause you never know when they are going to leave you." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: "you almost always pick the best times to drop the worst lines" belowthesurface 2003-10-10 20:03 (link)

You know what Jenna, you make it sound like I always start this shit. I think it was the most ignorant thing to say I use Jareth's death a self pity. That hurt me. You know how the fuck that makes me feel? Just cause you didn't know him that fucking well doesn't give you the right to tell me that I do that. what the hell is in your head Jenna? ugh you piss me off so fucking bad, you wonder why I pick fights with you. You are the reason. I cant trust you, you talk about me and probably spread rumors about me. I'm sorry that I can't trust you, but look why Jenna. I know the damn song, I don't care though. Yadda Yadda Yadda, all about you. I don't care anymore, I don't see the point in trying to be friends with you. Later... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: "you almost always pick the best times to drop the worst lines" draind 2003-10-10 21:17 (link)
	uh, well you do always start it. you pick fights over the stupidest shit. I'm not losing anything, Sam. I don't need a friend to be mad at me everyday. you act like you never try to make me pity you for anything that happens to you. your life isn't fucked up like you think it is. later (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: "you almost always pick the best times to drop the worst lines" belowthesurface 2003-10-10 21:26 (link)
	you don't know shit about me, and you think I'm losing anything? Nope, not at all. I don't need someone like you in my life, I'm better off without you. Oh yes I always start it Jenna. AHHHHHHH fuck you. You don't know shit and as far as I'm concerned, well actually, I'm not concerned so, later. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

maybe this will.. work again? ::takes risk:: (Anonymous) 2003-10-09 22:09 (link)

howdy there miss jenna. i kno what you mean about all your friends. i think it happens to everyone. and i kno youre gonna think im REALLY stupid.. but i mean whenever you wanna talk, im here. it might seem kinda weird that this girl who has never been your REALLY REALLY TIGHT friend but we've "known" eachother since like forever would say it.. lol i kno we were never really really tight but i still care about ya.. its not really anyones choice.. well i guess it is. i kno. sorry if i did anything that ever made you hate me.. like that big softball fight we had in 7th grade i think it was or something.. 6th.. i have no clue.. but now it is REALLY time to embrace your friendships with people, cuz you never know what is going to happen and in one millionth of a second your life, someone elses life, and your families life could all be changed. just so you kno, and everyone that is my friend, i love you with everything and if i never talked to you ever again or got into a stupid fight (which wouldnt happen) id still be wonderign why we ended such a great thing (this sounds like a freakin love letter or soemthing lol) , and that if everyone stopped talking to you, you dressed like a slut and lived in a cardboard box in my backyard , and you had 864236541564 kids with 534321351654 different men and smelled like b.o. and shit i would STILL think you are awesome and kool and id STILL loVe ya and that if anything would ever happen to you id .. ugh. i dont even want to think about that right now. i would remember all tha fun times we had, me and you. we gotta hang out more. youre awesome! YOU ROCK MY FUTHER MUCKIN sockS! i wish we were alot closer.. thad be great. now is a good time too. lol. i kno.. im corny.. but o wel. thats me for ya so youre gonna have to get used to it. :) haha. ok, enough with tha corniness. i hope you and all youre old friends get really close again. it sucks losing someone for stupid reasons.. or even growing apart like we kinda did. i mean, we are still kool and all, but that sleeping bag thing was so fucking awesome. lmao. sorry ,, im gettin corny er by The second. must go, before i get more and more shitty as i go along/ lol lets start over, lets start overrrrrrrr [bcr] (Reply to this) (Thread)

Re: maybe this will.. work again? ::takes risk:: draind 2003-10-10 14:52 (link)

hey, yeah I know what you mean about we've known each other for like ever, but we're not close anymore. maybe we can change that? I mean, we should at least go to a concert together + rock our socks off ;) lol hell yeah that sleeping bag thing was awesome, way back in 3rd grade. we've had some great times, I really don't wanna lose them. I'll keep in mind the fact that I have you to offer love + advice, + the same goes to you.. I'm here for anything you need [well just about, lol].. I love ya! <3 Jenna (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)