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Well tomorrow is my birthday and I'm not looking forward to it at all!!! It seems like noone seems to remember me on my birthday anymore. I have not gotten one fucking birthday card online or otherwise from anyone!! What's up with that? I guess I kinda got a birthday card from SLB and her family in the combination of a Christmas card. Thank God for Angel, I will spend some time with her tomorrow and that will be all I need to have something of a decent birthday! She always manages to cheer me up when I'm feeling down. One of the many reasons she's my best friend!! Tom hasn't given me a birthday card yet, but I figure he will have one here for me by the time I get off work tomorrow night. LOL He likes to do the last minute thing and suprise me when I'm least expecting it. One of many reasons I love him. I've been sick for the past few days and that's not helping my mood any that's for sure. And my wonderful boss tells me that she can't give me my birthday off, but that I should be out of there by 10:30, but fails to mention that I have to be there the next morning at 8:00. Nice fucking way to spend my birthday huh? Working and being sick!! Oh well, at least I have a job, no matter if I have to work on my birthday or not. You know this is the first time in years that I've worked on my birthday or at least had to work the night of and the next morning. I always work the holidays and don't complain about that, but I request my birthday and next year, scheduled or not, lose my job or not, I WILL NOT BE WORKING ON MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!! And that's final!!!
SLB was supposed to stop by and pick up some dupe pictures I had made of our Christmas at her house. Lots of good pics of the kids and such, but she never showed up or called. Typical!! Well she'll get them when she gets them. I'm not going to lose sleep over it that's for sure.
Speaking of sleep. I wish that I had the power to take all the things from the one's that I love that make thier lives unhappy. Angel can't get any PEACEFUL sleep for having bad dreams. You know the kind that stick with you forever and make your skin crawl when you think about them. I'm sure it's got a lot to do with the fact that there was talk of her ex coming back to Indy around the first of the year, but still I wish I could make it so she didn't have those kinds of dreams. I love her and I always want to "fix" things that involve those I love. But she is a good person and really is stronger than she gives herself credit for and she's definately a survivor and I want only the best for her. Which some people may have to come to that conclusion the hard way. Which I will get to in a moment.
DM can be so funny and cute sometimes. He was talking to Angel online earlier, while I was laying down and resting and I had just woke up when the phone rang and lo and behold it was him. He said that Angel was gonna call me crying and saying he was being mean to her. The first words out of my mouth were: 'what did you do this time?'. LOL He laughed and said nothing that they were just messing around on the net and he made her mad and that she said she was going to call me and even cry and tell me that he hurt her and then I'd have to bitch him out. LOL So he said let me call her on threeway and for me to be quiet and listen to what she says. It was funny, I had just went to the front room to IM her and tell her I was on the phone when DM told me to speak up. It was too funny. We all laughed about it and said a few snide remarks to each other and then he had to go and I called Angel and talked to her for a bit. It was really good to hear her laughing and cutting up. She does it so rarely anymore. I love her to death and it just makes me feel really good to hear her that way!! I guess that's what loving someone is all about, wanting to see them happy in life. Btw, before I let DM call her on threeway I asked him point blank if he intended to get together with her or if he had just told her and Kristin what he thought they wanted or needed to hear. He said that he does want to be with her, but he just couldn't put a time frame on it. And Angel and I both had told him we didn't expect him to do that, so therefore we can't press the issue. I just hope he don't wait too long and miss out on the chance to be with the woman he really loves and wants to be with. I just know they would be so good together and I want so much for them to get together. I hear it in DM's voice when I talk to him how much he loves her. He always sounds so happy and if I do happen to mention Barble he gets really quiet and acts like I've offended him or something. I just do it to see how he reacts. And if there's even a hint that Angel is upset or mad at him about something he calls me to try to figure out what to do next. And I usually end up talking to both of them and they end up working things out. LOL
Now for those that are going to learn the hard way that I have only Angel's best interest at heart and will do everything humanly possible and within my power to to help her find happiness in her. Brandy is first and foremost on that list. She's a lying, nasty assed, cunt and I hope as God is my witness that I never come face to face with her. I really feel like she was trying to start trouble between Angel and I today and that just fucking pissed me off to no end!! I'm so tired of people trying to come between Angel and I that I'm ready to beat the shit out of the next person who even remotely looks like they might try it!! She had the nerve to insinuate that I had written the email from Mr. McKain to Angel and her "boyfriend". There's so many things wrong with that, I don't know where to begin. Does she really think I'd do something that fucking stupid? No, I don't want to see Angel and Mr. McKain back together, but I stand by my previous statement of that if by some act of demonic possession that would happen, Angel would still be my best friend and I would learn to tolerate Mr. McKain. And furthermore I don't even know the man's password to get into his email account and send ANYONE a fucking email. I know Angel doesn't think that I would, but it's the principle behind it. And on top of that someone tried to get into her (Angel's) email account today. Some fucked up shit going on there for sure. Then Brandy told Angel that I had threatened her when I was talking to her on Yahoo! Messenger. With Angel's help to remeber that I had talked to Brandy on my other name, I found the archived messages and sent them to Angel and we both read them and couldn't find where it was that I had threatened this stupid fucking cunt. Why is she so worried about anyway? We ARE many miles apart. Although Greyhound runs special fares all the time and Angel does know where she's at in her little hick world. See what this stupid whore fails to realize is that I send Angel a copy of EVERY email I send to Brandy, DM, and Mr. Fucking McKain and every email I get from them. Now, DM and I talk more on the phone, but both him and Angel know that I tell Angel everything him and I talk about with the exception of stupid shit like him buying this car that Bri has. And half the time I even talk to her about that. Now, as for Brandy I have threatened her, in emails and meant every word I said. But if she can't take an ass whipping that's her bad. She shouldn't have tried to mind fuck my best friend or fucked my best friend's husband. I once thought that maybe her and him weren't, but she acts too obssessive about him. Constantly throwing him up in Angel's face and gets really defensive about not talking to him or seeing him or whatever else involves him. I don't know, maybe it's just my suspicious nature, but I don't really think that's the case this time. Maybe they're not fucking now, but I believe they were at one time. She was just someone for him to pass the time with. And the only people they are fooling with their stupid childish bullshit is themselves. They both insist on this being all about Angel, but in all my emails I've stressed the fact that the one hurting most is his daughter, who once loved her father with every ounce of her heart and is finding out the hard way that sometimes daddy's just can't love back the same way we love them. And that's the saddest thing I've ever seen in my life and I'm 39 years old tomorrow and have seen a lot of heartache and pain in the eyes of many different people for many different reasons, but there is nothing sadder than a child who loves their parent (mother or father) and feels that love isn't returned for whatever reason. And it takes a really cold and heartless fucking person to just ignore it and do nothing to help that child come to terms with the reality of the situation. And I'm sorry but Mr. McKain has put himself in that catergory in my eyes. No matter what problems he and Angel are having, he needs to take the time to reassure his daughter that he loves her and she's not the reason he doesn't want to be in the same home as she is.
Well, I guess I've bored everyone to tears with my bitching and whinning so I will end this tirade here. I will talk to everyone later. Hope you all have a safe and Happy New Year!!!!!!! ~~~~~Demonique
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