Demonique (demonic_dragon) wrote, @ 2003-12-16 13:38:00

Current mood:

grumpy

Well it's about damn time you can actually get on to Blurty. LOL

I've come to the conclusion that some people just understand what it means with other people work a late shift and therefore need to sleep in on a day to day basis. Fucking Kym called this morning at 7:30 and of course the only person in the house she managed to wake up was me!! I finally managed to fall asleep again probably around 9:00 and then Bri woke me up airing up the tire on the car, which happens to be parked right outside my window. Needless to say I didn't get much sleep and have to work til Midnight plus tonight then open tomorrow. So, therefore my mood is not of the greatest either. And to top it off I'm stuck in the cosmetics department tonight which will be boring as fucking hell. I will be praying for this night to hurry and get over, that's for sure.

I would've gotten more sleep, but Tom committed us to watching a movie that Bri has been trying to get us to watch for a while now, but we didn't get to start it until 1:15 a.m. cause we had company til around 12-12:30 and didn't get into bed until 3:00 this morning. Oh well, I'm a tough old bird and will survive I always do!! I just hate not getting the amount of sleep that I feel I need to function without having a bad attitude all day. It's not like Bri was going to be up at 7:30 this morning and she fucking knew this. If not she's even more stupid than I credit her with. At least Angel is taking me to work LOL I sure as hell am glad that I don't have to walk even to the bus stop.

Well tomorrow is my mom's birthday, but I have to work, so I will just have her come by and get her card and presents on Friday as that is my next day off. I'm sure she will be ok about it. She's always saying that birthday's aren't a big deal anymore when you reach her age. Well, she's the next one in line on the birthday train. LOL Then we have Doughboy, but we will most likely just send him a card. His birthday is Friday. I will probably send him and ecard. Then the next one is KS, Angel's daughter. Which I will be picking up her card and gift either tomorrow or Friday. Then next on the list of course is my hubby. I figure I will get him a video game for the Gamecube and then when we get our taxes back we are going to get new rings and I want to get him a new and better electric razor.

I've also come to the conclusion in the past few days that some people are just not real or true friends even if they claim they are. I have nothing personal against Angel's friend Jen, but I really honestly believe she is jealous over Angel and my friendship. It's another MT situation. Who is also jealous over Angel and my friendship even though they both would deny it. But it's cool, Angel and I just let them think they are our best friends to keep down the drama, but we BOTH know who the truest friend is we have. And that's each other. Jen and MT are just going to have to get over themselves. I have tried really hard to get DM and Angel together, but for purely unselfish reasons and those being that I think they would be good together and good for one another. I know that Angel doesn't want to end up back with Mr. McKain, but I really worry that if her and DM don't get together soon, that may not be an option. She is only capable of loving those two men with all her being and no matter how much I'd like to see her even move on with someone else if need be, I know that she only wants to be with DM and if not, then she will end up back together with Mr. McKain, after all she has a heart and he will find a way to use that against her if nothing else. She is such a caring and loving person and her and her ex have a bond that noone can ever break and I'm beginning to wonder if DM will be able to accept and handle that. He seems to be so obssessed with the idea that she will want to take Mr. McKain back, although he hasn't voiced this to me, he has evidently voiced it to Jen. He told me the other night that he believed Angel and I about her not wanting to take Mr. McKain back, but you never really know what a person is thinking do you? He also told me that he hadn't told Jen that he didn't see a future for him and Angel. And I have to say that I believe him. DM knows that I don't hide things and I don't mix words. He also knows that if he needs to tell Angel something but isn't sure how to go about it, he can come to me and I will relay the message. I asked him point blank about the night he went over to Angel's and told both her and KS that he wasn't in their lives right now but he would be one day. He said that was true and I asked him if he really meant it or was he buzzed enough that it was the buzz talking. He said no, he said it cause he meant it. I also asked him if he had said that if Mr. McKain showed up at her door if he would tell him to leave and he said yes and that he still would. To me that sounds legit, like someone who wants to be with Angel, but for some fucked up reason that only DM can understand, he remains in a relationship that he's obviously not happy being in. I will figure out a way to get to the bottom of it and then I will put it all on the table. I mean, fuck, Angel has spent half her life with and waiting for one man, does DM think she's really going to spend the rest of her life waiting on another? I don't think so, she will eventually choose to move on and then he will lose the opportunity to be the one person he's so much as admitted to her face that he loves. Now what the hell could possibly be so bad, that he'd risk that to stay with someone he's claimed for the past two years or longer that he doesn't love? Oh, well, I will figure it out eventually and if he's lucky it won't be too late for him and Angel to try to work things out and be together like I feel they both want to be.

Well, that's the end of this session. I have to get ready for work and spend some time with my hubby before we both are out the door. Talk to everyone later. ~~~~Demonique*

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	Re: demonic_dragon 2003-12-19 11:39 (link)
	Thank you for the birthday greetings for my mom. My best friend, Angel's, little girl has a birthday Sunday, and then my hubby's is Wednesday. Talk about a busy month for me!!! Well, hope you have a safe and happy holiday. Talk to you later~~~Renae (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)