Tom (deadgeneration) wrote, @ 2003-11-24 21:44:00

Current mood:	depressed
Current music:	blink 182: story of a lonely guy

you're only born so u cud die.
im tired and once again, have a head ache.

today was the same as anyother stupid day. long and boring. i had to serve a detention today for art class and i must say, wow. i fuckin hate that class. the teeacher shud choke and die. its the hardest class i hav. tomorow and wednesday r half days so thats alright. my favorite part about the week is no skool on thursday and friday. 4 day weekend. that makes me happy, especialy since i hate skool now more than ever. i always hav, but it just sux more than usual lately.

i talked to laura today. well actually, she said "high five." thats too low" and "yeah" and i said nothing. she accepted my apology online the other day tho, so i guess everythings alright. i hope it is. i hate fighting with my frends. theres still one more person i havnt heard from in a week becuz we're fighting, and just like every other fight, it was all my fault. the sad thing bout all this is nothing feels right anymore. i really miss the summer. things were so different. people were so different. like the other night wen i was at matts house, i was watching a tape from the first band practice laura came to and sung at. she has a beutiful voice and the song was coming along. she maybe came to 1 or 2 more band practices after that. i dont ko wut went so wrong. that was alot of fun but i guess shes not into it anymore. we (me and thew) kinda wish she was tho. it really was alot of fun.

i hav more to say but my fuckin mom is kicking me off now. i really hate my parents. they dont fuckin kno/understand me at all, let alone listen to wut i hav to say. lets see wut ive learned today. i learned that i miss the summer alot and that things/people change and theres really nothing u cud do about it, as much as it hurts.

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deadgeneration 2003-11-25 19:51 (link)

thanx alot, that really means alot to me. i dont kno wut ide do without u either. and u kno u cud call if u ever needed to talk too (even if we fight) ill really try harder to think before i speak. i dont mean to hurt u or anyone one else. it just happenes cuz my mouths faster than my brain, but i wont let it happen again. and im really glad bout band practice. scotts grounded for this week end cuz hes a dumb fuck, but ill let u kno wen the next practice is in advance. and wow, thats for stickin up for me with that stupid fucked up, obbsesive, insane, bitch morgan. that really meant alot to me. like u hav no idea. i dont kno wut the fuck i did to her tho. i havnt talked to her since she left st. joes. and thank god. im avoiding that whore on purpose. especially after that note i told u and everyone else about. i really, honestly think she needs help. that note she wrote was fuckin scary. i kno all of it was just lies but why wud a sane person write a note like that? they wudnt. heres my theory ; she is still obbsesed with me. (i usually hav that affect on gurls) so she tries makin me jelous by sayin shit in her blurty bout me not talkin to tim (the annoying kid i really dont like and never really talked to anyways) and then she tries to make me mad and ruin my life with tryin to break apart relationships with frends of mine (who by the way were frends of mine a year before she even knew them) just for attention and the hope in her black ugly fuckin heart that i will call her. shes a self centered selfish bitch and i wish she wud just stay the fuck out of my life. so thank u for stckin up for me. i dont kno wut ide do without u. and hopefully that stupid bitch reads this cuz i cant talk to her online, she blocked me. and she did such the thing so i cant tell her off wen she says shit and does shit behind my back. stupid fucking whore. "congradulations, and fuck you" the only thing i dont get tho is wut u mean by "Just don't get yourself in too over your head." u need to explain that to me in person cuz i dont kno wut u mean. but thanx once again and im still really sry bout wut i said to u before. i didnt mean it and it was wrong of me to say such things. catch ya later elevater!!! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)