| Current mood: |  infuriated |
WHY SHOULD I EVEN BOTHER??
as part of the dnd this yr, every dept is suppose to do a
grp performance. Initially when my colleague approached
me to join 2 other colleagues to form a grp to perform, i
rejected her.... so i suggested another colleague R who i
was told is a very very good guitarist... until i heard him
play yest... not exactly captivating nor outstanding...
anyway, this R told my colleague that he needed someone
to play the keyboard to back him up... and den she asked
me again to join in cos if i dun play R doesnt wanna play
which means we cant send in a grp bcos the criteria is min3
in a grp... so i thot okie i can TRY... i have neva played e
keyboard in my entire life... i only played the piano..
(i made this disclaimer but they insisted that it's the SAME)
we decided to have the first practice last nite... and in prep
for that i stayed up till 2am to look for the scores online
and dug out the tracks so that we could listen to them during
the trial rehearsal to see if our plan could work.. and i was
already tired from tango that evening...
so last nite we tried out plan A which is to sing/play medley
of songs from popular musicals like phantom, cats etc.. and
that was the FIRST time i touched a keyboard and oso the
FIRST time i m playing the score.. since i was young, my
teachers already told me i can sight read pieces quite well..
this means that i can take a piece and play once through with
the timing and tune more or less there... but this does not
mean that i can play flawlessly at the first instance...
i started learning when i was 6 or 7 and stopped at grade3
but continued to play for my own leisure till today.. and i m
no prodigy, maestro nor professional pianist... but still i can
play many songs and they sound decent.
and there i had R and T (another colleague who decided to
pop by and disrupt our practice) ... i tried to practice on the
keyboard... but i had trouble getting used to it cos the keys
are plastic and light... when i hit it hard to get a good accent
it doesnt have the effect compared to the piano... and i m
a slow learner whether in dance or watever... worse thing i
had to stand and play... so my arms were in an awkward
angle that i was totally not used to...
i tried my best nonetheless to sight read the pieces.. and
for the first time in my entire 25 yrs on this earth.. the 2 guys
MOCKED at me and said i should use FEELING and not look
at the score... excuse me... this is the first time i m looking
at the score... i m no prodigy who can listen to mp3 once and
play out the whole music at the first instance... how to play if
i dun look at the DAMN score...
den they tried to teach me by pointing out that i m hitting the
wrong chords... fingers on the wrong key.. when they did not
even take proper lessons to learn how to play the piano.. i
have been reading scores in treble and bass clef for the last
20yrs.. i can well read my notes correctly and i know which keys
are wat on the piano
they insisted i follow their timing which ended up with 6beats
in a 4 beat bar... (-_-)lll and one of them even exclaimed that
he doesnt noe what the diff notes mean... essentially diff notes
denote diff beats... in that case dun teach me abt timing and
rhythm... you cant always play by FEEL... sure, after getting the
basic music right... you can improvise and inject more feel and
stuff into it... but thats when u are familiar with the song
already....they just kept LAUGHING at me like i m so stiff and
trembling while playing the keyboard... stiff mayb cos i couldnt
really switch to a diff playing style .. but for sure i wasnt
trembling.... they just took me as a big joke...
that wasnt the end... they wanted me to transpose the key fr
C major to G major (on the spot, immediately) and play that
cos it is a more comfortable key for my colleague to sing.. sure
but i m NOT a transposing soft-ware... so i tried... managed to
identify a few chords for them... but they kept insisting that i
was wrong... i was really pissed already... i sang out the note,
hit it on the piano, they still couldnt get it on the guitar.. so
much so for them thinking they were brilliant... oh and btw they
were not really familiar with the repertoire of songs... and they
wanted to advise me on the tune...how ironic...
and by the way... i used to play the french horn for 6yrs while
in sch... that is the most diff instrument to play bcos you need
to have good hearing and pitching.. in the past we had to be
auditioned to see if we could play the french horn... not trying
to brag here but i m very sure that the aural aspect i m def
much better than them..
i am VERY upset over this whole thing... fine if you want to call
me petty... but i dun think anyone will like being mocked and
laughed at esp when it is those that were mocking and laughing
who are the REAL donkeys.. it is extremely frustrating when ppl
who are not better than you correcting you for a mistake you
NEVER made...
anyway, i know i will not be able to get used to the keyboard
in 2-3practices....so i suggested that we could use a plan B..
again i stayed up till 2am to come up with another concept..
which i now think i should not have done... i should have jus
told them "sorry i m backing out... too bad, find someone
else" ...
i saw R's email response to my new concept ... he said "u
muz be joking, we are halfway there already" TWIT.. we only
had a trial last nite to determine if plan A would work .. how
can we be HALFWAY there?????????? and den he insisted tt
we should borrow 2 colleagues who are not in the corp dept
to play with us.... although he doesnt spell it out ... i could
tell that he wanted to play band style... and even if the
competition allows... i jus feel there is no meaning if you
get ppl from outside the dept... in his email... he said that
he, T and another colleague will FIGURE OUT the songs and
sort out the arrangement and i jus play like how i played
last nite (WHICH WAS TOTAL CRAP.... I HAVE NEVER HEARD
MYSELF PLAY SO BADLY IN MY ENTIRE LIFE) i said umpteen
times that the keyboard DOES NOT work for me... he still
insisted... i dun wanna go up the stage and make a fool of
myself... to make sure that the keyboard really doesnt work
for me... i went home and played the whole repertoire on my
piano..i sounded fine
unfortunately my other colleagues in the grp will have to
decided if they want to go with plan A or B... if stick to A i will
back out... if B... R will back out... honestly at this point i dun
mind dropping out... why should i bother? why should i
compromise?
Mr R doesnt noe who he is dealing with ... i dun wish to show
my nastiness unnecessarily....
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