"..But not bad enough to stop thinking about when I was younger and before I met Joel.Damn that fact that I can't forget the things that I really want to forget.I just don't get it;Joel can have any girl he wants,and I mean any.But he's with me,a nobody.An everyday I look in the mirror and think bout how much shit I've been through,how many times I almost died,wish I had,but didn't. And then there's Joel :happily sighs: but I'm just waiting for the day that he finally realizes what I am and leaves me.Don't get me wrong,I love him more than words,it's just..I guess it's because I have never been loved before,and now that I am,it's scaring me.Because I'm waiting for it to be taken from me..I dunno..."
Joel loves you,don't worry.Everyone goes through a shit load and then things get better. I bet Joel wouldn't leave you for anything and I bet he loves you more than the world.
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