If there is one thing that I regret on becoming a vampire,is the thing that I can't love or be loved anymore.Althought this feelings is rather unecessery in my place,in a place of a servant or a Family that is high rated and respected.You tend to judge me from what you read about me,what you heard but never after what you saw or felt.
Strange mortal indeed.That's my opinion,in which you were so highly interested.
Solving this situation? What is there to solve? We kissed and you strongly regret it,right?
If I have merely judged you upon who you were you think I could even trust you to go freely inside my mansion? You think I would walk and argue so open with you? Dammit Alucard... you can be so blind sometimes.
*nods*
Cannot love or be loved... Only as a servant
You are right there's no situation to solve, we will forget this to ever take place.
*continues to read the reports quite upset and shaken about the whole even*
Stupid girl
*takes away her glasses and rubs her eyes fighting the tears. Of course she wont cry for such a thing!*
Why did you think a vampire could possibility love? You should be glad, this solves many troubles
((OOC: Integra misanderstood him, she believes he only has feelings for her because she wants it and he's happy to comply as servant. She can be a dominatrix and control freak but ordering feelings is something beneath her. Oh the ANGST. Alucard's 'opinion' sidetracked her :D ))
How could I possible kiss her? Varney can't be right....at any cost. That fool doesn't know what love is!
Hmp... *sits down on a grave and looks at the stary night*
Seems like Integra doesn't want to admit her feelings....and I'm stupid enough for kissing her.
Or is there trully something....more?
*pauses*
It can't be....I didn't love anyone for centuries...
((OOC: *winks winks* You know,Alucard is giving his best. *cough* You can be happy he didn't...em..*cough*sexherup*cough* OMG! >>. I would love to see Integra to say sorry. ))
*appears to his side with a sleeping Judith on his shoulder, hugging him from the back, and with some packages hanging of his arm*
Ah love quarrell?
((OOC: She did say 'sorry' a LOT before, besides Integra actually almost admited her feelings. But Alucard messed up, why do you think she asked: "Why do you think I am so ashamed?". The correct reply was: Because she loves a vampire and that was forbidden. Then Alucard came up with the 'kiss' thing. Males))
Well, she reminds me to my youngest daughter so much.
*looks at him with a smirk*
Oh... I will tell you, once you have clear about what do you really feel towards your master. I saw your aghast expression here, don't kid yourself that you don't love her
Then why are you sulking because your Master called you servant? If she doesn't mean anything else to you, you shouldn't be so upset.
After all you yourself told her, 'you can love as a servant to the family' or some stupid improper thing like that.
*crosses arms*
Who told you a vampire cannot love a mortal? Ruthven? After all he can only love himself.
Because you didn't love anyone since your first wife, it doesn't mean it can't happen. Its rare and normaly you wont be aware of your own feelings until is too late and you lost her forever.
*sighs*
That happened to me and Flora a century ago. Also I loved my wife until her dying breath, she was grey and old, yet I held her hand in the end, and I was a vampire then too.
Ruthven that fool? I wouldn't listen to one single word he tell me. And I'm not sulking,you ridicules vampire. Why should I do else? Walk in the halways of Hellsing HQ all the night and days as I always do?
*looks at Varney rather upset*
Stupid improrer thing? I never said something like that.Next time you listen,try to listen carefully or just play barbie and ken with your little Judith.
*crosses arms and looks distant*
I won't be aware of my emotioens? and even if I am,there is nothing I can do.Afterall,I will always stay a servant in her eyes. And you and Flora are a different story,Varney.Don't compare black to pink. *smirks* I'm black and you are pink. *cracks a little smile towards Varney*
So,loverman,what do you suggest for me? Or is your magic trunk empty...?
So your priceless hurt face after you left her office was because the weather? Uh hu..
*eye roll*
And you should listen to your Sir Hellsing's words more carefully, she called you servant... because YOU told her you cannot possibility love on another way. No that's just peachy, she has enough morals to not order you change your feelings that's why she send you away. And before that she did her confession, you were fooling around and you missed it.
I just have the urge to blow away your head,and I don't know why. *sarcastic smile*
It's easy to talk,loverman,but I can't possible go back.Althought,I intend to go back for some blood and I don't know what to talk with her about...
*looks at Varney*
So in your opinion I should just said that I love her with all the respect and stand there like an idiot when she starts with her morals and honour? .... Not me,thank you.
Honestly, sometimes I wonder how you could court your first wife.
Listen you unlovingmonster, you don't only have to confess your feelings but also your intentions about how to deal with that after. So yeah, she did admit she loves you in her original way. Should I quote: "Why do you think I am so ashamed?. And you joked around and did a little jest that if she's not ashamed she needs to kiss you or something. Honestly Dracula, you can be a little slow in certain matters.
*sighs*
She already accepted that, the problem is not herself but what other with think of her. I am sure your Master is quite worried of her image.
*shrugs*
Now of course, she will probably blow your face if you touch the subject. Admit Dracula. You ruin it. Bad. And possibly it was your only chance before...
So should I non-stop read her mind or what? Slow or not,what would you do in that situation? She is the only female that awoke somekind of interest in me and yet,all you can say that I blew it.
*looks at his gloves*
Her imagen...heh,so what should I say on this? The Great Impaler is falling in love with his monster...and is getting love lessons from his own personal loverman.
Great...
*looks at Varney*
Well,where were you when we were talking about this with my master? It's easy to be smart now,Varney.And heck,she can't kill me....*stands up*
You should probably bring that little....brat of yours home,it's already to late for a little girl like that to be outside...with her rather strange babysitter. *smirks*
I won't admit anything,,before I don't get one last shot. *smiles at Varney and slowly walks to the Hellsing HQ - Integra's Office*
I was there because I cared for you Dracula! You are one of the few beings I can count as a friend and I would like to see you happy, real happy not just amused, for a while.
And you didn't notice my presence because you were totally distracted and distant the entire time.
*notices Judith stirrs a little*
You maybe the best fighting Dracula, but there's certain areas you aren't good. Don't get your pride got in your way. Pride was your downfall to the Hellsings in the first place.
*has fallen sleeping over the photo album of the desk, holding two photographs one of she with her father and another of she with Alucard-in-his-dog form. Her eyes are closed and is clear there's unsheed tears because the area is fairly wet*
*slowly steps into the office,seeing Integra fully asleep.He slowly walks up to her*
Is she asleep?
*goes around the desk,turning the chair around and picking her up*
You can't sleep here.
*looks down and sees the pictures and a fairly wet area*
Did she....did she cry because of me...?
*having Integra in his hands,he slowly walks out of the office to Integra's room where he softly puts Integra down and sits on a chair.As hours passes,he falls asleep aswell*
