Recluse (cynicalrecluse) wrote, @ 2004-05-17 23:44:00

Current mood:	crushed
Current music:	Mooncar - Security

Couldn't leave it alone...


I didn't want to know
I just didn't want to know
Best to keep things in the shallow end
Cause I never quite learned how to swim

I just didn't want to know
Didn't want, didn't want,
Didn't want, didn't want

Close my eyes just to look at you
Taken by the seamless vision
I close my eyes,
Ignore the smoke,
Ignore the smoke

Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
Such a lovely color for you
Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
While I just sit and stare at you

Because I don't want to know
I didn't want to know
I just didn't want to know
I just didn't want

Mistook their nods for an approval
Just ignore the smoke and smile

Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
Such a lovely color for you
Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
Such a perfect color for your eyes
Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
Such a lovely color for you
Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
While I just sit and stare at you

I don't want to know

But for some reason I had to look. I told myself that I don't care anymore, but the way I feel now I don't think I'll ever stop caring. And that means I'll never stop hurting. I've shut myself down to keep out the pain. I want shut everything down. I feel damaged beyond repair, I feel as if I'll die like this. Completely numb, but completely full of suppressed pain.

	ruinxme 2004-05-19 22:57 (link)
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