Ashley (sinister_) wrote in cutmeintopieces, @ 2008-06-01 12:03:00

Current mood:

tired

hello, my name is Ashley. i'm 20. i've been hurting myself for about 10 years. i'm not exaclty sure what i'm doing updating. i need someone, i need something, i'm just not sure what. i have no one to talk to about any of this. all the firends that i used to have for this sort of thing, i guess have all grown out of it.

i've been in limbo for the last 3 days. there's no season, my house doesnt have one inside. i havent been to work in 5 days and i have no idea how i'm going to go tomorrow. i cut myself on friday and my boyfriend found them. he always says if i dont stop, he's going to break up with me over it. i told him to go ahead and just do it, he didnt. it really bothers me because i always think he's going to tell my mom. she thinks i stopped doing it 4 or 5 years ago. i dont know what's been going on lately but the part that scares me is that i dont care... i dont want to do anything, i just want to sleep.

mycrazylife101 2008-06-01 23:38 (link)

Sounds to me as though you're depressed. I've been there and am currently still fighting it. I sometimes have a million things that need to get done and I just go to sleep. Don't even think about how I'm going to get everything done when I wake up. You should really try finding a counselor or therapist. I started going last July and it has helped so much. I'm one of those people that doesn't share my feelings or talk to any one when something is bothering me. Therapy has given me at least one person that I can get everything out to. I'm not cured yet because I still cut once in awhile and I'm still ana but I'm learning how to deal with my emotions. I'm willing to listen if you need some one to talk to. I know it helps sometimes to let things go. My name is Nicole. I'm also 20 years old. Let me know if you need me. (Reply to this) (Thread)

abstractfacade 2008-06-27 11:21 (link)

hey..i Really get you bout needing to talk to someone and especially bout not wanting to do anything but sleep cos thats the only way yo ucan shut everything out. but love, the fact that he didnt break up with you goes to show how much he cares..and take it from me, when you hurt yourself you're probably really hurting him too. There are other ways to deal with problems, i pray yo ufind better solutions cos from the looks of it you do have people who love you, right by your side. Take care of yourself yeah (Reply to this) (Thread)

	takemeunder501 2008-11-01 00:58 (link)
	i am feeling the exact same way. i didn't go to work today and i left early on thursday. i cut tonight for the first time in over 10 months. i'm just glad it's the weekend and i can take some sleeping pills and sleep for the entire weekend. i can't imagine going into work on monday. if you want to talk or anything, i'm here. (Reply to this) (Thread)

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