treehouse dreams (curlydramaqueen) wrote, @ 2004-06-23 07:51:00

madness
It is 7 a.m. and I am already frustrated. Is that healthy?

Please allow me to vent some Upward Bound emotions that will mean nothing to you......
The children are getting to me. Faith Frost follows me around like a lost puppy...and she annoys the piss out of me. I hate to say that about a student, but there is just something about her. Beth Marshall got this WONDERFUL idea last week about stopping her Zoloft. I convinced her to not stop taking it completely (she is bipolor, I'm afraid) but if she wants to lower her dosage, to cut it in half. She didn't take her meds all weekend when she was at home. Now she's taking a lower dosage and yesterday I could already tell a change. She's upset and depressed and everything she was last summer all over again. She is having migrains and did not go to breakfast or to class this morning. Now I might have to stay in the dorm all morning to watch after her instead of spending time with Doug, whom I haven't gotten to see since Friday. I'm so weighed down with the responsibility of this issue with medication...I'm beginning to hate being the med lady.

More rants later....i'm off to steal a few minutes with my baby...

solemnwalk 2004-06-23 23:49 (link)

my friend Valentina did Upward Bound a few years ago in summer. she told me a bit about it. & my friend Jess was a camp counselor last summer & barely ever got to come home. she began to hate it & the kids. in fact one girl had this problem where she'd pee and poop herself all the time, and she didn't care. she was seven years old. one time she pooped in the middle of the cabin floor and didn't tell anyone. finally they got pissed off and sent her home. but she didn't even know her own address, the girl. what a story! you are carrying quite the grief on you. I admire you and I'm sorry you have to go through so much frustration/stress! ease it as best as you know how! they need to give the med lady some nice spa treatments or something relaxing! they should really think of that, actually. how considerate it'd be! I hope it gets easier, somehow! eeek. (Reply to this) (Thread)

Upward Bound curlydramaqueen 2004-06-27 18:51 (link)

This is my second year doing UB. The children range from 15 to 18. So many of them I love...and so many of them stress me out! :) It does place terrible time restraints on my life since I only have from 8 a.m. until 11:30 a.m. for free time. My only full day off during the week is on Saturday. Definitely overwhelming. I know I probably make it sound horrible, but there are a lot of things I love about it....namely helping the kids, even though they do make me want to pull out my hair sometimes. :) Thanks for your wishes! That means a lot! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)