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Brave new world...
There's somes news on the personal front.
1. I am going to be engaged to be married. (Yes, to Shruti. It will happen in the next few months)
2. I joined Karate classes.
Pending Marriage
I don't like the idea of marriage, and right now the fact that I am going to be engaged with Shruti and probably get married before the year ends is giving me jitters. It's not that I am afraid of commitment or responsibility, not at all. I am afraid that soon I will no longer be the person I am. My life will change and I will have to accomodate a totally new different entity in it. Another person will share my life, not just weekends, or evenings, or a few hours a day, but every moment. It will be a huge difference, I wonder if I will be able to do the same things that I do now. And she must be in an even more precarious position, cause she must leave all that she has and come to live with me. I am afraid for both of us.
Karate...
I've wanted to know martial arts ever since I was a child. It's not the power and the violence which fascinates me, but the focus, the concentration, and the balance. If one learns martial arts with true intensity, the difference will be much more than how many people one can beat. I feel this will make me sharper, more focused, calmer, braver and fitter. I feel a strange sense of tranquility when I attend the class.
I need to work on myself...
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 skyfiery
2005-02-18 21:08
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I wonder why I don't see you online nowadays. Now I know.
Marriage indicates change, yes. I don't know much, but I know enough about fear to speak of it, I guess. Thing is, I've learnt that many people see just the causes of their fear, and focus too much on them, trying to solve them and everything. But have they looked at fear for what it really is? I've been successful for only once, but that once is enough for me to try again. I looked at the fear itself, understood it, and was liberated.
Not the cause of fear, but the fear itself.
On the other note, congrats on attending karate classes. Boy, you're sure becoming like me, ain'tcha? Lol. Though, I've withdrawn from martial arts and took on fighting...
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