corridor7f (corridor7f) wrote, @ 2003-12-01 12:39:00

I'm still in transition, so my speech is that of then and that of sometime next month, or several months later. I'm trying to change things and it's painful. Growing pains in my cranium and a sense of time drifting like snow.

No money and no car in the frosty air. Sit around and talk until we regress to children. I have to pop the eyes of a tourist into my head so we can find something to do. Talk, talk until I'm a shell. I need to talk to myself more. I'm so tired of trying and pushing and getting little. I suppose I'm gaining little things, but I want something substantial. I want a bloody steak w/a spurting vein. I want something to die in my efforts. I want reincarnation.

Still waiting and frittering my time away until I get it. That starter that moves me to jump. I'm not as patient as I thought. I need to earn some money. I writhe when I think of debt.

talk... nomin 2003-12-02 09:19 (link)

to who.. Debt: There is a point when you realize that you are going to be going into debt at some point in your life no matter what attempts to bulwark against it you make. You can save and scrimp...but either you will be forced to relocate for a job or pay for schoool, buy a car or a new lung, or perhaps pay for a child....and all your hopes of financial freedom at a young age crash around your head in such a beautiful display of shattered dreams. Go back to school, it is more a gauntlet then a learning experience. You can march patiently through the school hours...better to bear a backpack then the cross of a martyr. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: talk... corridor7f 2003-12-02 10:43 (link)
	I know, I know... I will eventually. Soon. Looking into it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)