RayRay (cornflakegirl) wrote, @ 2003-06-02 15:10:00

Current music:

The Faint - The Conductor

Confident with your back to the audience...
AKON sucked.
I had the shittiest time ever.
It made me realize a lot of shit, though.
Like how I'm really boring and can't keep up a conversation for shit.
How I look like I'm 12.
How when you ache for one of your friends to come by, their too busy entertaining the person they were just bitching about.

I never in my life felt so alone.
The people this year weren't as friendly.

The high light of AKON was getting to come home and snuggle with CJ when I got too emotional, or when we went up to Misty's room and watched Bruce Almighty and the first 3 eps of Ebichu.

It made me realize that AIM doesn't fucking matter, the fucking boards don't fucking matter, and Live JOurnal and Blurty doesn't fucking matter.

One weekend, loves, You're going to find me up and gone. Never to update again, and bitch about shit. It will be quiet, and empty.

Who reads this shit anyway...
I feel like no fucking cares. About anyone or anything anymore.

fuck

On a lighter note, I can finally wear my hair in pigtails, rather than just in the ponytail. Pretty soon, I'll be able to wear it down again, and recut it. With summer coming on, I'm just going to get it short and spiky. It will be much, much cooler. And I got batts for my keyboard, so I can finally be at peace.

Yes.

Sometimes it Seems anime_goddess9 2003-06-02 18:21 (link)

I hate seeing such a sweet sweet person like you suffer so much. I wanna give you a BIG hug and tell you a dirty joke in hopes to get you to either groan or burst out laughing. I miss all the good times at your house.... Wrestling over things and such. *hugz much* If I'm one of the people you hate then I love you to bits because I feel like such a shithead right now. Love and Other Indoor Sports ~Kerry~ (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: Sometimes it Seems cornflakegirl 2003-06-04 12:16 (link)
	If I'm one of the people you hate then I love you to bits because I feel like such a shithead right now. NO WAY Dirty jokes = ;O) hehehehe (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

I CARE awwdorablyrabid 2003-06-02 22:15 (link)

I'm really sorry you had such a shitty time at AKON... but I can not agree with most of horribly inaccurate comments you've made... so here I go: "I'm really boring and can't keep up a conversation for shit."- completely NOT true... you're an awesome person to have a conversation with and you're not boring at all!!! "I look like I'm 12." *scratches head* i don't have a clue where you got this from... you look very mature for your age; you just have a very cute, girlish charm to you! and that's not bad at all!!! "Who reads this shit anyway... I feel like no fucking cares. About anyone or anything anymore."- umm... *raises hand* i read your journal all the time and i care!!! btw... i hope you don't get off aim either, because i enjoy conversing with you on that as well!!! Well... I hope I cleared up a few things... and I really hope you cheer up soon, Rachel =D PS: Your hair idea sounds really cute!!! (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: I CARE cornflakegirl 2003-06-04 12:13 (link)
	<33333333loooove to you (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	xmariannx 2003-06-02 23:48 (link)
	i don't think blurties matter unless you're honest. if you fill your blurty with worthless shit and aren't genuine then its just a waste. i personally look forward to venting in my journal- and if you haven't noticed my journal has gotten me somewhere. i hope you feel better. i really don't know whats going on- you should fill me in on the details. `Mariann (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: cornflakegirl 2003-06-04 12:19 (link)
	venting makes me a better person to deal with, heh. I dunno, I'm just being a poo head heh I'll feel better soon :O) (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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	Re: cornflakegirl 2003-06-04 11:50 (link)
	hehehe at first I ddin't know who this was!! then I checked ze info <333 Love to you! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

bbq_menchi 2003-06-04 02:58 (link)

Well, if you went to the anime expo w/ me this year, you definately would have a good time! ^_^ venting is certainly a good way to release stress and aggravation. And having a journal is a good way to let go of some of that stress. Don't let the bad times bring you down, hon. Oh and by the way, I get carded CONSTANTLY because people think I look younger that what my age is. Don't let that bug you too much...you'll be thankful in the long run when you find your fellow peers looking all withered and you'll be GLOWING with youth! :D (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Re: cornflakegirl 2003-06-04 11:48 (link)
	I have one word for you: LOVE (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	bbq_menchi 2003-06-04 15:19 (link)
	Right back at cha! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

lime_rain 2003-06-04 23:12 (link)

Man. That really sucks. Sorry your A-kon wasn't better. Glad you had fun in my room though. It's sort of funny the way I found your journal. I was looking up people with the interest of akon. I found yours, saw the name CJ and kept reading. I was like. OMG That's Cj's Girlfriend! You are such a sweetheart! I think you're cute and nice and it was good seeing you at the con. If you go to Animefest we'll watch movies and anime in my room again. I think that would be fun. We can all watch Loki together. Or something like that. Add me to your friends list if you want. Sorry I didn't talk to you much at the con by the way. I tend to be really shy in person. Especially with people I don't know well yet. I'd like to get to know you though. So, IM me on aim sometime, or post to my journal. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	cornflakegirl 2003-06-05 19:32 (link)
	<333 I had a marvelous time in the room, hehe!! I'll add you on AIM, and my IM is SparkSatinWorshp. :O) I'm shy too, so no worries there! You're one cool cat, love. If we have the funds and time for A-fest we shall be attending Heart Rachael (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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	Re: cornflakegirl 2003-11-16 14:55 (link)
	Super! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)