Big city life
I am feeling so down, So this city and this place finally manages to bring me down with constant fuck ups over a period of 2 years, I have no female in my life and I know its not a big deal for many but suddenly after that phone experience it has become a huge issue for me, Well I am about to be 24 and I have not been in any serious relationship or anything, and I am really starting to hate the fact that I am a looser...The pain is too much to take and its always there, no painkillers for this one, am I really in depression, I do not know...
My mom and dad do not know about it, my sister is happily married and she does not know it either, How long can I keep this happy face, when I am so sad from inside. I just have one friend I share everything with and lately I think he has started to pity me, and that is not what I want, I just want to escape everything and start afresh, there is no sign of light in this tunnel, I do not want to turn around and I do not want to go ahead, somebody put me out of my misery, just fucking run over me...
I have always believed in God but it just gives me a shiver to think that I am all alone and there is no God to look over me. Life is so unfair and unjust and I am done with it, I am loosing my faith and myself, and there is no hope...
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(Anonymous)
2009-09-23 05:26
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i have always believed and known of the strength and pride in you,my friend...never have i pitied u...i only feel helpless when i see i cannot help someone i care so much about, even when i know he is facing harsh times. but above all this i know that u will easily come out of this without help, all u need is to not let go of ur belief in yourself, of your pride ...
stay strong
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