erin (confusi0n) wrote, @ 2003-10-04 08:12:00

Current mood:	dying
Current music:	yellowcard - ocean avenue

i'm grounded for so long.. i always get in trouble for stupid shit and it's like one day of groundation and i end up out anyway.. but now like 15 things that i've done wrong are just piling up.. all this shit happened and i'm probably not going to be updating for a while since i've lost all of my privilages.. i have no computer.. i'm only on now because my mom is sleeping.. i have no phone.. i don't know what i'm going to do without talking to jeff everynight until like 5 in the morning.. i'm going to be so lonely.. and i have no leaving the house other than for school.. which i was going to go out today anyway cause it's my mom's birthday and her friends are going to have her out all day and all night.. but i got alan's illness so it looks like i'm gunna be in all night.. i feel so fucking sick i think i'm dying.. i fell asleep at like 6 last night and just woke up.. so now i can't fall back asleep so i have to deal with being sick.. it fucking sucks


yesterday was a bad day.. i thought i had detention and my mom was being a phsyco bitch so i would have had to walk home in the coldness.. so i asked jeff and caitlyn to wait until i got out of detention then we'd walk home.. we did it one day last year for jeff and it was fun.. but yesterday was just badness.. i didn't even have detention.. for some reason i wasn't on the list even though i was supposed to have it.. so then me caitlyn jeff and mike walked around then went to mike's.. while walking around i got the shit beaten out of me so many times by caitlyn mike and jeff.. i fell so many times.. and i attacked caitlyn cause she threw a tape at me and it hit me in the eye.. it was so painful.. and then i fell on the same knee like 20 times because mike's a dick and won't realize that i cannot give him a piggy back ride.. wow you should see the bruise on my knee from falling on it so many times.. it's so big.. but the day was still kinda fun.. but very tiring and hurtful.


in other news.. i have in-school until wednesday! i got put in there yesterday after lunch.. i don't really even know what i did wrong.. i just remember dereamer, whalen, and pierson standing around me yelling at me.. i was so confused.. but today was jeff's last day of in-school so on monday i'll be with adam, raven, and coulter.. but then tuesday and wednesday i'm going to be all alone.. oh well.. better than going to classes i suppose.. i talked to kayla for a couple minutes the other day.. i guess we're okay now but i don't really know.. i don't even remember why we weren't talking.. there's nothing else to write about so i'll update next time i get a chance to.. it might not be for a while.

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confusi0n 2003-10-04 19:30 (link)

yeah you did deserve it very much you fuck up.. you said something like you were aiming for jeff but you had bad aim.. i don't believe that at all.. i think you were aiming for my eye and you just have amazing aim.. i've never seen jeff laugh harder than when i swung at you.. he was on the ground having seizures lol.. it was a fun day.. very very painful day for me though.. oh well.. i think the reason i'm so sick is from laying in the grass with jeff in the freezing cold.. it's alright though.. it was worth it going to mike's.. i learned how to make my own cigarettes using that contraption that his mom has.. i wasn't very good at it though.. call me later my love · · erin · · (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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	confusi0n 2003-10-05 20:22 (link)
	yeah yellowcard's amazing.. i'll add you.. add me back? · · erin · · (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	atlantic_al0ha 2003-10-06 11:33 (link)
	dude hey yeah i added you to my new one Atlantic_al0ha i got suspended for some reason... so eyah be sure to change the usernames ! love ya hun Sammi (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	confusi0n 2003-10-06 15:44 (link)
	okay i'll switch it now · · erin · · (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)