erin (confusi0n) wrote, @ 2004-02-25 23:47:00

yeah.. so, i'm back. and i missed my computer like fucking crazy. so much fucking shit has went on.. since my last entry..


friendships have been fucked up then rebuilt.. relationships have been fucked up and rebuilt then refucked up.. now somewhat rebuilt.. i've been getting drunk alot lately.. i'm closer with kristen then ever.. she knows what i mean.. i saw kayla fight mctague.. i don't care if you feel the need to comment in my journal like you did in others.. but i think that kayla won.. definatly.. and i'm proud of her.. you can say that she didn't win all you want.. but i was there.. and i saw it.. kayla won.. end of story. stop bitching about it. i miss caitlyn so fucking much.. caitlyn, my love is like whoa.. i miss you more than i miss spunky.. well maybe about the same.. i don't miss anything more than spunky lol.. no offense.. i've been fighting with my mom/brother so much lately.. i'm 'out of control' supposedly.. fuck that.



yeah.. so.. my life, is fucked up.
i'm either way too hyper or way too mellow/lazy.
i'm either way too happy or way too depressed.
i'm either way too drunk/stoned or way too sober.
i'm either way too put together or i'm falling apart.
i'm either laughing, crying, bitching, not talking, stoned, drunk, or unconscious.


nothing makes sense anymore.
it's as if i'm in a movie like memento.
nothing makes sense, and everythings out of order.
i'm always wondering what the fuck is going on,
i'm always wondering what's going to happen next.
sure, it all comes together in the end.
in the end it will all make sense.
or is that just a theory devoloped by a director? or is it real?
in the end of this movie of my life,
will everything be peiced together?
in the end will i sit back and sigh,
now knowing what has just happened through my whole life?
and why what happened at what times?

or will i never understand any of the scenes?



yeah.. so my way of thinking is fucked up.. so shoot me.

	shakeitgranny 2004-02-26 00:40 (link)
	my love. your not fucked up. and im glad you agree that i won. im glad your close w/ kristen. i wont lie and say im not jealous. because you were so my friend first lol. i love you so much. im glad you got to update. because i was running out of things to write on 570 boards. lol RIGHT! i miss you. but iwill see you tomrrow yay love yo u Kayla (Reply to this) (Thread)

well im sorry you have to be jealous... maryjane42o 2004-02-26 08:33 (link)

Kayla, I am sorry but i love my erin peterson. I am not giving her up!!! ( oh so you know im not trying to be a bitch, I'm joking but i love her and im not giving her up) Erin, we have been getting very close. It's awesome yo!. EI EI uhoh!! lol I love leaving school with you. I am with you at this current moment. Everything's fucked up anymore. people are fucked up.. well not us er anything lol .. You must remain my stoner buddy. I have replaced Micheal Carmello, and Kayla has nothing to worry about nor does caitlyn. I know I can never replace any of them. But I am apart of the "* Beretta Family *" Shout outs to Chud, Eric, Me, and Erin!!! Welp I'm done babbling. I love you. but I love eric more ..you love jeff more.. lol bye babe Always <3 Maryjane <3's 420 Current Mood: High Current Music: Chingy* Holidae Inn* or Nelly *ei* lol!!! HAHA (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	(Anonymous) 2004-03-04 13:27 (link)
	I'M BACK MOTHERFUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!! xoxo Caitlyn (Reply to this) (Thread)

	white power (Anonymous) 2004-03-14 22:17 (link)
	iam back to mo fuckersssssss so take my photo off the mo fuking wall nigger (Reply to this) (Thread)

	hteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (Anonymous) 2004-03-14 22:20 (link)
	take my mo fucking photo off the wall nigger (Reply to this) (Thread)

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Re: ugh confusi0n 2004-03-15 16:33 (link)

and why is it that you still can't stop fucking bitching? jeff does know. and i'm not fucking with him. and for the last fucking time.. i am not pissed at anyone but you. because of this.. because of your constant fucking bitching. ooo no you don't care about me anymore.. big fucking deal holli.. i've gotten over that caitlyn doesn't care about me anymore and kayla still did but whatever.. she's friends with you now. i was never pissed at caitlyn or at kayla.. just you. please think before you fucking type. and how the fuck were you and caitlyn my only friends? why without you do i all of a sudden have no one? haha. that's actually fucking great. god.. your ego is so huge.. you think that you're the only fucking person that matters to me. bye holli.. don't comment back.. don't read my journal anymore.. it's for my friends. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

you no who dis be nucker (Anonymous) 2004-03-17 22:27 (link)

If I cut off your arms and cut off your legs Would you still love me anyway? If you're bound and you're gagged, draped and displayed Would you still love me anyway? Cutting with the knife blood is spilling everywhere She will be my wife Secondary spine, incisions must be accrute I know just what to do My hands are trembing I can't spare to slip up with this knife Her beauty so illogical The beast come gliding in Hideous chameleon stripped down to her skin Dance to the burning flame Pleasure exhumes the pain The night bursts into flames Dance Helena Dance If I cut off your arms and I cut off ur legs would you still love me anyway? There's a spot on the floor where your limbs used to be and I close the dorr on my Fantasies Why don't you love me anyway? Helena (Reply to this) (Thread)