Emma (cinnamon_kisses) wrote, @ 2002-11-02 15:05:00

Current mood:	sick. lonely. trying.
Current music:	Mariah Carey - - My All

I'd risk my life, to feel your body next to mine..
- Cough. It is strange, being sick. The last time I was sick, it was an unhealthy loss of blood over an elongated period of time. A month and ten days, I believe. Now it is just an onslaught of.. germs, I suppose. These horrible burning sensations in my throat and my whole body is freezing, but my cheeks feel a furnace. It sucks the very breath from your lungs. I feel like I should be turning blue. I suppose it is Abilene. I haven't been sick like this in a long time. It didn't happen in California. Maybe California is perfection..

In any event, I want to attempt solace for a very dear friend. Jason darling, I am so sorry for the pain that you are going through right now. Words seem inadequate to speak of what you've shared over the year, and I know that, despite that convincing facade you will place on to hide the tears, that you're really hurting. And I'm sorry that you're hurting. I was given a song a long time ago, and I want to share it with you, if there are no objections..

The ones you love, they let you down. And I want you to know that I'm sorry. The choices that they made were wrong. You were caught in the middle, and I'm sorry. So when the anger and the pain get the best of you, I know it seems like you're all alone, but I am feeling it, too. So when you're crying in the night, all you need to do is call me. And I'll be there for you..

- Nod. It's a song that you've never heard. I doubt anyone has besides a few people. - Cough. But it speaks truth, and just.. - slight shrug. I guess that's all I can say. I don't have any spectacular words of wisdom to bestow. I leave the eloquence to you. - Half smile. But if you ever wonder. If you ever feel like maybe she.. doesn't care.. I have many stories. Many words that would banish every semblance of that thought. I made a promise to you.. a little while back. And I'm going to keep it. - Nod. I am.. If you feel any piece of guilt, don't. Feelings are things that one simply cannot avoid, even in trying. People are brought into our lives for a reason, and leave an impression behind. A handprint that helps shape the person you will become. You're both incredibly beautiful people, partially in gratitude to each other. And that's something that you'll always have, no matter who is picked up, or who walks away..

	stephenson 2002-11-02 15:27 (link)
	You didn't have to, but thank you. I'll be alright. ::Slight smile:: I'm feeling better already. ::Glance to mood:: Are you alright? In a little while . . I'll be gone. The moment's already passed. Yeah, it's gone. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	It takes a lotta love these days.. cinnamon_kisses 2002-11-02 15:47 (link)
	I'm glad if you're feeling better already, though it seems doubtful. But I trust you. - Nod. I'm fine. - Half smile. Just sick. Don't be gone.. I know it is just a song, but still... songs have meaning. - Slight smile. Remember, I know what you're thinking when you listen to songs.. I won pictures. - Tug. Send them! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	stephenson 2002-11-02 16:01 (link)
	You know it's over and I've thought about it. I understand that now. I'm over it. I didn't realize that ' lonely ' constituted as fine. ::Brow quirk:: (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

What can I do? Insatiable.. cinnamon_kisses 2002-11-02 16:08 (link)

This song. Ha. Oh. The lonely thing. - Shrug. I was thinking about things. Memories, things past, like you said. They're wonderful memories. I guess just with the rememberance comes nostalgia. Accompanied by missing, which just.. I don't know.. - Shrug. It's not important. - Cough. And my friends left me here all weekend. Alex went to Austin and Aubrey went to Grapevine, and Angela and Rachel left about an hour and a half ago or so. So I'm ok. ....Ice takes forever. Acceptance is the first step to recovery. - Nod. Sorry, that sounded like an add for alcoholics anonymous, or something.. - Wrap, waits for ice. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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